just got out of am class

I find the class pretty fun

it's really fast and the stories the instructor tells are pretty entertaining

no am next week so just another week added until we finally finish

got cs bright and early in the morning

got to be up around 6:30am

for tonight I have to mop

mom told me to think about putting cali to sleep

everyone has known cali since I got her

it's so hard for me to think about putting her to sleep

she's the kitten on my program icons

she was my ffxiah avatar for a long time

unfortunately she's peeing about every 5-10 mins everywhere

on the cabinets on the door screen on the tv any spot on the walls

she's 12 years old

the worst part is she seems really healthy

she just won't pee in the box she poops in the box but she pees everywhere and it's like multiple times an hour now she just started that a few days ago

I know she could live for several more years

but my mom told me to seriously think about it

Salem is perfect she does both in the box

cali attacks salem

basically cali makes everything harder and she doesn't even care to love I can pet her for about 30 seconds before she gets tired and starts trying to bite

Salem checks on me she hugs me she kisses me she eats her food uses her box

it would be so much easier with just salem

but I really do love cali too

I never really talk about it

but when my last girlfriend and I broke up in 2013(12 years since i've had a gf x.x)

I knew I would have zero chance at finding a new gf and I knew I wanted to get a cat

I found cali and she was perfect to fill that void

cali got spoiled

because I was her owner and I fed and changed her box

but the old man lived on the couch

and cali didn't like going in my room I usually kept my door closed anyways but she hated going in my room

so she didn't know who her owner really was

she would lay on the couch with the old man

and there was a clean sign when she kinda didn't know who her owner was

then she just started peeing on the wall instead of her box

and when we got to the apartment she just kept doing it

I know she could live several more years

I told that to my mom and she said she doesn't want her to suffer if she is peeing every 5-10 mins

I think about if she got out and was tortured or ran over

and her thinking about my grandma and I in her final hours

how much that would upset me

you know some people are bad to animals for no reason

when I think like that she is like my little baby kitten

and I do think putting her to sleep is a good idea

but I know she has a few more years in here

she's 12 and she's getting to that stage but not now

I just have to stay right behind her and clean all her little accidents

I'm going to miss cali even if she is bad lol

she's actually a little better at getting petted and patted on

but she can't stand it

I quit picking her up for years

but I just started picking her up again in the past week

she hates it so much lol

she lets me pick her up and love her for like 1 kiss then she's scratching and crawling to get away

Salem can be held and kissed all day she loves it lol

just something I have to think about

I don't want her to suffer and she really doesn't seem happy

I'm going to miss my cali girl

good thing I have my girlfriend salem I love both of them