Because a good day doesn't just shove a sausage in a keyhole 

He is precise and exact

It's the same process each time with one little change for each kid

Like a sequence of movements then a letter from the alphabet 

And that one special move

Because it's not a random act of frustration or miscalculation 

It's 100% exact in the process of baby making

Cannot be off by any number not even a 1 hundredth 0.01 needs to be exact each time to make the kid you want exactly 

I was with Karolyne during my hayday

I was with Kendall during my last Vegas nights

I was with Mrs day during my I want to be Kendall daddy phase

Karly was never there for me

She's there

Right now she's there

I guess I'll give that ride a test drive

All in my dreams

But I can't tell the difference 

They all did cheer like me

Karolyne was also an exotic dancer in Las Vegas

Kendall was an exotic dancer to exotic dancers

I thought I could learn the move that makes Kendalls the magic trick to get her

And karly was a baby but now she's grown

And she's playful 

Logan always my favorite 

Karly though 

She has developed to be a real problem for me

She's perfect !

Her body her style 

I could really lose it all with a girl like her

 it concerns me that i've done 130 days in jail and a year on probation

and if it goes south I could still do prison time for doing what I call self defense

What I need to do

and i'm writing this down so I can remind myself and my mom

first of all

I need to go to my local social security office and get my address info

I can't make phone calls to ss because they say I am saying my address improper

I also need to get my ssi direct deposit

I owe 1.2k in fees

this is not an issue if I can pay around 200 to 300 a month and I can do that

and I plan on doing that

my community service has 53 hours left

I get 3 hours 30 mins for each community service

I plan on going tuesday and friday

that's 7 hours a week

it means I need

7+7+7+7

28+7 35

7+7 49

+7 56

that is 8 weeks or 2 months of going regularly

max I can get tuesday wednesday thursday friday saturday

3.5 3.5 3.5 3.5 3.5 17.5

3 3 3 3 3 15

32.5 a week if I go every single time

if I go twice a week that's 8 weeks or 2 months

I feel twice a week is good and 200-300$ a month is good

not talking about my dirty tests just planning on staying off of any marijuana for the remainder of my probation

I am taking mushrooms

and I do not fully understand what a controlled substance is

tobacco is allowed

nothing else is

i'm going to find out the hard way if mushrooms is something I can take

and if it's something I cannot take

I just stop right there

sigh

lol

SO

go to local social security

confirm my address on file    I have post letters they said the address was wrong

get my ssi on direct deposit

I need to call social security each work check I get to explain how much I got paid that's every 2 weeks

200-300$ payments on my fees

I owe 1,200 if I can pay 300$ a month that's 4 months

2 community service a week for 8 weeks that's 2 months

get all my service done in 2 months get all my fees paid in 4 months

get my social security address verified

get my ssi direct deposit

call every 2 weeks to explain how much I made for that period

and obviously find out the hard way if I can take mushrooms or not

i'm not smoking weed anymore if I get dirty I just tell the truth I didn't smoke it

if it shows i'm taking mushrooms and they do not like that

just say it was an accident and I won't do it anymore

that's all I have to do to get my freedom on being able to smoke weed back

and weed is really all I have to live for

weed is what keeps me happy to do all I do and want to keep working

so 4 months all goes as planned

I'm all caught up done with community service and fees

just have to get everything put in the computer

maybe I can smoke again

or

I could go to prison for several years from a few dirty tests for self defense

no one really knows

prison has always been on the table

always wishing for the best

-upbeat

Up all night watching Logan on Upbe4t.com

BBBBRRRRTHHHRRRRRRRR

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