Ignoring the hospital bills

Why does it seem so hard to have a kid

Getting the sex is hard enough

Finding the girl that wants to have a kid is nearly impossible 

Then the chance that girl is good and wants the best for me and is willing to stick around

I make around 18k/year

I don't make enough to go out to different bars and buy drinks I don't know anywhere else girls go

It seems like you have the poor parents that have the kids for more money

And you have the rich parents that can buy anything 

And in the middle it's like nothing

I haven't seen a girl I could have kids with in over 10 years and the last was an ex gf 12 years ago my last gf actually we tried but it didn't work

I can never do anything my asks me to do

I feel so incapable lol

I have no idea where to even start

And I don't want to start until I get off of probation 

Then I know I have an illegal wall I have to climb to even get to the girls

Not because underage or anything 

It's just like all the girls are on the other side of a wall where you have to do illegal things to even get close to them

Then you have to cross the illegal wall again to get them to your place or go to theirs