Just made it home 

My dad took me to eat

I told him I need to take him to eat

He said what he really wants me to do for him is get a girlfriend and made him a grand dad

It's pretty cool when your dad is telling you to get a girlfriend and have a kid

And that's the main thing he wants from me

If I could find a girl

That was interested enough to do that

Or was in the same situation 

It's too bad I know exactly what I want looks wise

And it's so hard to get that

But I'm about to turn 32 in about two weeks

And it is about time I try at least

I really don't have enough money to shop around for a girl

As in going to places and paying for drinks or paying for food

Maybe after I get off of probation I'll save some up and try

I'd hate to have to settle on a girl and not get what I really want

But like in my eyes

All the girls I like spend hundreds on products and clothes

And I wear the same clothes days in a row

They all have houses and SUVs

I have a one room apartment and walk to get from point a to b

I see videos on YouTube in places like Austin 6th street and other college places

And it looks so easy to pick up a blonde hair blue eyes 

They honestly seem easier to get their number and work something out like having a baby

San Angelo blonde hair blue eyes population is impossible 

I can go years without seeing one

The last girl I was attracted to about 3 or 4 days ago was blonde hair blue eyes but it turned out she was like 68 years old

There's that girl at meals for the elderly 

She had me rinse out her wrag and it felt like I was doing her underwear laundry 

She always calls me by my name

She always gives me the extra food

But she has a kid already and idk if she's single or not

But she's not blonde hair blue eyes

Realistically if I don't go out of town which costs money and requires a vehicle 

I'm never going to meet that girl

I want to get one

And just shoot off as hard as I can inside and pray for a baby

Not like I don't want accident

Like it's the only thing I want

Can you even imagine wanting a baby and literally shooting it in with that level of love knowing it's exactly what you want