Went to see my brrrthrrrr 

He passed away 7 months ago

He had more flowers than any other of the headstones

I knew him my entire life but we didn't get close until I turned 21

From 2014-2016 we were in separable

I went to his house every single day

We smoked all day every day

And we could drink 3 or 4 30 packs a day easy

He got very sick and skinny his last year with us

And everyone could tell he was struggling with pain

He passed from sorosis of the liver

First time I ever seen someone fight so hard in the last few days

Besides my grandma

Everything looks like they're going to pass all their levels and everything 

Then they start throwing a fit and jumping up and down on the bed

Then the doctors have to calm them down

Eventually they quit fighting and go

But I'm almost positive it's all the fentanyl they give them lol

Glad he isn't struggling anymore

Both of them meant so much to me

Both of them were my biggest supporters 

And now both of them are up in heaven 

My grandma did so much for me

I had it so easy with her around

Then she was gone but she made me so strong

Everything is easy now

Got away from my grandpa and all his mind games and torture tactics 

Now I'm almost living the dream

1 more months of community service 

8 more anger management days

6 months is my goal to have all probation paid off

Then I'm buying 2+ pounds of marijuana 

All new smoking stuff

I'm already keeping my apartment clean

Taking care of my cats

I'm not even counting the days until probation is over

I'm counting the days until I can place the order on my first pound lol 

I'm literally planning the most fun I've ever had in my life and it's only like 6 months away

Then I got to wait several more months to actually have the fun

But just getting the shipment will be the best thing ever to date I think haha

Aaaahhhhhh so happy everything is working out

Everything is going perfectly