in my anger management class what my instructor talks about

his examples

basically none of them fit in my case

he always talks about significant others or people in the work place

and the questions in the end are like

how many times a week do you get mad

where do you get mad

what do you do when you get mad

i'm like

0

no where

try to solve it like it's a problem that needs to be fixed

in my case it was my grandpa and he was on my ass since I asked for sex for my birthday when I was 5 years old

and it only got worse as the years passed

the instructor says not to fight back and try to win to apologize for what you did and talk it through

well grandpa always started the fights no one reciprocated

we always had the something needs to change talk

and we were the ones asking him to change and he would just say no and do the stuff we asked him not to more

if I told him I don't like what he said when he would talk bad about or I don't like what he was making me do or to not ask me to do things for him because I had my own obligations

he would call me a pussy and say he can't believe I asked for something like that

I typically never get mad

I don't get mad anywhere specifically

I ALWAYS try to solve the problem when something upsets me

so for years i'm asking for changes

and he wants the same change

no drugs

and I had to smoke one for my mental illness two just to be around and work for the guy three it was the most fun I knew how to have

I could easily make it to the end of the month when grandma was around

when grandma passed I didn't have someone helping me with food

so I couldn't afford to drink or smoke

so basically I couldn't afford to be around grandpa

every single time I asked for change he made it out to be a joke and just completely ignored it

then the instructor talks about how embarrassing it is

to have your mugshot go out and have everyone able to see you

and how bad it is alone that you have to spend $10,000-$20,000

and i'm like

I don't care about that I see it as a good thing

everyone I know wanted me to do it to him for what he was doing to me

yeah the 10k is harsh but in my opinion 100% worth it

having to do free labor(cs)

having to pee in a cup in front of someone

having to do an anger management class

that doesn't bother me

that doesn't bother me either

I like the class it's just what he says never fits in to what happened to me

I already knew not to yell back and try to win my mom always fought with my dad and her boyfriends

duh

I always do try to solve the problem and try not to be a smart ass while doing it

then he talks about don't you feel a little whatever he says for doing it when i'm sure you've thought about it and just one thing would of fixed it

like

because I did what I did

I actually can not be contacted from him we can't speak at all

if I just moved out

which moving out on my own was the only thing I could of done to get away

I didn't think I could

he 100% would of kept calling me and asking me to do things for him

100%

they don't really work with restraining orders for no reason

do you even have any idea how hard it is to actually get a restraining order

this was literally the cheapest quickest and easiest way to actually get away from the man

even if it does take 4 years total to get my ability to smoke and drink back

I'm happy I did what I did

I find the punishment rather easy

I actually GOT AWAY

from working how I did from calling the cops on him so many times

I ACTUALLY got away lol

no no no no

this is the best thing that could of possible happened

I'm happy I did what I did

I don't mind the extra work if it lets me keep him away from me