it has been over 2 and a half yeah since I have drank or smoked marijuana religiously

I still have two years to go before I can smoke or drink

what I have learned is

life is a lot easier without smoking or drinking

even though smoking makes all the bad go away

life feels like it's a knock off

nothing feels as good as you know it could

and everything kinda seems fake or for a child toy like a toddler toy

I got my charge july 2023 now is may 2025 but I didn't smoke good for over a year before I got my charge

I was buying what I could and even if it was like half an oz

it would all be gone before I got to my job because time seemed to stretch out

so I had to smoke and know I had to work so be ready

not get to smoke with everything done and no plans

I have two years to go without drinking or smoking

no drinking is easy. I can make 1 40 oz last like 3 days lol when I could drink before I got started again

I just don't like it if I don't have my set and setting perfect

no smoking isn't bad either. I don't want to smoke if I can't do it all day and my house(apartment) smells like it all day

if I smoked one day and screwed up my probation that would just be stupid

and my apartment won't even smell like bud for longer than 2 hours lol

I don't think any good has come from not smoking or drinking

financially it's stupid to not smoke or drink

it doesn't conserve money

it isn't a healthy option

drinking and smoking is definitely more healthy

basically it's just a requirement to probation

when I get the 2 years done

I don't even want to think about it until I get closer lol

i've got a long time of community service anger management probation visits

all of that

should go quick if I stay busy

when we finally get out of the hot months and it's not a job to keep the apartment cool enough to not be sweating