I want to know more about the lord

what I don't understand is how does he go from being so "bad" then gets crucified then is resurrected and is good 

my step mom my dad logan they all use jesus for strength i've never understood it good enough I've always felt like I was missing something to want to look up to him instead of god Logan used to put god #1 then she switched to jesus and my dad goes as far as to call jesus his god

walk on water

    he was poor and always asked for beer at the drinking spot

turn water to wine

    the beer drinkers got tired of him asking for beer and he learned to make his own but it still wasn't as good as what the people with money were drinking

abuse mary and try to impregnate her

    marijuana reference which he could not afford then to abusing his "Mother" by asking repeatedly to have sex with her having occasional sex due to not being able to afford marijuana to see better

when his beatings began for abusing mary and stealing beer

he claimed to see god and that he was god

well I claim to see got and I claim to be god but i'm not stealing beer or abusing women because I don't have enough money to smoke weed

then he gets crucified that's when everyone in the town and surrounding towns are lashing and dealing damage because of him claiming to see and be god from being beat from stealing and abuse

to the point he dies and is buried then dug up

this is where it gets weird and ufos show up

then he turns to a holy spirit

but where in that does he gain so much power

that such a large portion put him over everything as their lord and savior or the real god

I mean is it just because he got crucified

I've always felt that was destine to happen it could of been anyone

and with a deeper believe in god it was everyone

is crucifixion such a bold act it can get you worshipped by such a large population even if everyone believed you did deserve that punishment in that time

why when someone says I was in the hospital for a week and even the doctor told me the only way I survived was my believe in the lord

or someone does so good in their life because they believe the lord is god 

could even go further back to jesus watching with god and all the eastern higher ups

or that you are a resurrection of jesus not god which is why you have to work not just get

you had to play by the rules and work and exercise but breaking any rule is grounds for a death sentence

from the day it starts as young as 4 or 5 years old

I just wish I understood that one section a little better