Like how people make such a big deal about events or movies or games

Waiting months or years

I never got that

I try to now that I'm older

But I never bought into the hype or found a reason

Now I believe it's just good for several benefits a little pep in the step something to plan a bbq for whatever

I always thought getting good grades to get a good job

Was a bad idea

Because jobs come and go

And it's not worth crunching so hard in school to get a job then lose it then start over like none of it ever happened

Like at a job a million things can go wrong where you lose it or if you make your own business a million things can go wrong where you have to spend more than you ever made

I never really bought into the job thing

Never believed in it

Had all types of family members 

Those that didn't work at all and always had the most money but were the tightest with their money

Those that worked very hard but were very carefree with their money but expected it to be fair

Those that worked even harder but never had a dollar

And it all just seems like bs

I never thought I could have my own apt and pay my bills and hold a job

But I've done it the past several years

I kinda always thought I would keep my YouTube job and just make videos

I had been doing that since high school making more money than anyone else I knew

But that ended

Then there's drug dealing which I always said was to pay for college and that worked

Because I'm done with college and I don't sell stuff anymore

I guess if I did have a better job it would be software engineer 

I really like coding and programming 

But I find small jobs more work to find the job no so much do the job

And I find getting an actual spot to be very confusing

If it was like removing viruses and planning a windows environment that isn't bad

But when people talk about full stacked programs and pulling into from a database and using GitHub to save versions and blablabla

That's just not my thing

I like making cool stuff

And releasing it for free with no ads

Just to get my name out

That works great for what I do

I could pull like 150k 250k 400k from software engineering 

But my main thing is I don't want to be tethered

I don't want to have due dates

I don't want to be responsible and have people depend on me

I want to be the most free and abled to do nothing for several months in a row

And a job just doesn't fit that criteria