feels like being sick and starving from multiple things

first breast milk then food then sexual activity with girls

then you don't get that medicine
so that's already three things stacked you miss out on

then you get in trouble for doing something wrong

then you have to do your punishment on top of being sick for not getting the first three things

then you get health issues and have to get injections or pills

and that isn't enough

so then you have to use drugs

then you get punished for using drugs even though you are doing good starving from no breast milk food or sexual activity

it feels like you just need to get your drug habit under control

you just need to get off the pills and injections

you just need to get the people that fight with you and get you in trouble out of the picture

then you can get your food

then you can get your sexual activity

then you can get your breast milk

but then they hit you with a punishment that lasts 10 years

and you get everything taken care of besides sexual activity and breastmilk

but then they drag it out so long you honestly 100% feel like you don't want those two things

but you know you need them to be better

to finally undo the knot and get in with your life

but the punishment just keeps turning the shoe lace back into the most heinous knot god and the devil can imagine

so then you untie the knot and try to get your girl and finally get your starvation taken care of

and that's just when you get bad news

something went wrong and you're going to suffer again

so then you take that with the best attitude you can

get it taken care of

and now you're back at everything is taken care of besides having a girl

your space gets dirty you clean it

you eat multiple times a day

you don't do anything wrong

then boom bad news again

health concerns you're ruined in some way a bad tooth cancer losing an ear getting something amputated a cold a flu  anything

so then you keep doing all your daily chores

then more bad new more bad new more bad new more bad news

always starving from not enough girl sexual experiences 

so then you finally get EVERYTHING besides girls done

now you need to make like 4,000$ extra to save up drugs

THEN YOU CAN FINALLY FIND A GIRL TO GET ALL YOUR SEX OUT

because there's no way using male sex toys is good for male health

it makes it all better

but we still crave a girl to get it done the right way

and not need girls anymore like all the cool people in high school and college

and that's literally just to not be sick anymore