How are people like 60 and still don’t know you have to lift the flap up
Like have you never needed to learn anything for yourself
How do you forget that every single time
How did you learn you need to put the car in drive and park
How do people like you exist
I swear my grandma and everyone else would give me hell if I didn’t lift the flap for her to get the cart
It’s like damn
I feel it’s basically like wiping your own ass I shouldn’t need to turn around and walk 20 steps backwards to help you with something you forget every single time we come to Walmart and we come like once a week
And god forbid you throw a tiff and everyone around us gives me the evil eye for what not lifting the flap
I didn’t design the carts
And why are you giving aggression because you refuse to learn how the carts work
And they try like 3 lines of carts and it’s the forth one you help and it’s the exact same as all the other three
Occasionally I’d stand there to see if she would remember what I did to free the cart all the times before and that was like the end of the world for not helping like she was stuck in some industrial machine too far away to hit the emergency turn off and I was just watching her arms get torn to shreds pulling and pushing on the basket like an unconscious baby
I didn’t know what I was doing was so wrong
You were publicly humiliating or killing someone that loved you the most
To him it’s having to help someone that just won’t learn
And to you it could be wanting his help or wanting to humiliate him for not helping
But for him it’s helping someone that refuses to use their brain and it does hurt
All too often it was having to belittle one’s self so another could stay in their childish rhythms of not wanting to use their brain or learn
And that’s not to say it went with both sides
One can only give with no take for so long
The waiting to finish every single time
The starting another game and needing to finish that one
The not wanting to learn
And that all gets taken care of by going above and beyond
Which gets squashed by just playing another game until you finished
While one doesn’t even get to start their game and another person in the house doesn’t let them start
So you start smoking weed as a game
Then you’re spending all your money just to smoke constantly
Then you’re playing more games to finish because he has to ask for money for more weed
And it’s all just so damn destructive
A person can only be so giving and forgiving when everything cost emotional stability and simply being delayed directly costs money to the point you have to ask the one demanding to be given to and forgiven taking emotional stability no matter what and that’s the only person you can ask for money and money is the only thing that keeps the living environment together
It’s such a screwed up existence
I’m so glad I live along with my cats and I don’t need to cater to anyone at all anymore
It’s so difficult with people that just want and want and want
And there’s 4 of them
And she never had less than $2k
But she always made it just another deal to basically have to do prostitution for your grandma to get money from your grandma to enjoy like being pulled in every direction by the people in your house family members
And asking for money is like asking for the world
Even though they’re costing you multiple times that much by getting one over on you and sitting not taking action to actually get things done
It feels like having management in your own house
And all they want to do is sit and watch tv or play silly flash games
And you’re literally dying from making too little money when you should be rich as fuck and you just want to be in your spot
Then when it would be your time to love your family
And you would get to enjoy them
It’s exactly when it is their time to go to work
And by the time they get home they’re pissed about something at work
And you just get the pisses off venting and not wanting to do anything or the last thing they want to hear is asking for money
When they’re basically only working on the schedule you two used to go out and love each other
And they literally for the life of them cannot see it or refuse to admit it until the day they die
You knew exactly where you stood when you got paid for your job
then you can visually see them in your seat and them not getting paid because they don't do that like it keeps them young then they're going to work and leaving you to fend for yourself
and they fight to the goddamn death using all types of denial of service attacks even to the point of giving you seemingly stolen money to keep their job to live a little longer and keep you happy enough to not start killing others or yourself
But you DAMNWELL KNOW FOR A FACT they are in your seat where you can make money
and there's no way you can get that seat back with them still alive
then they die unexpectedly but they were already using you 3,000% to the core
and guess what someone else like a brother gets that seat leaving you with literally nothing after working your entire life in giving and forgiveness getting paid so the first person can keep living
and your brother in this instance nearly instantly dies
and you finally get your seat back
almost like a deathly pact or gang activity everyone that got high on you and got it so good for basically being a complete dictator and it returns to you and everyone you loved like that is dead but you can finally live a happy life without giving and forgiving every second of your life
like we did 2009-2012 then we got sent back to 2009 living in 2012 then we stayed in 2009 back stuck in 2009 and now it's still like we're in 2009 in 2009 I'm just glad we'll be like it's in 2012 in 2027 then we'll quickly catch up to 2027 in 2027 then we'll finally be up to speed by 2027 I'm just glad it's before 2030
I'd really like to get back with my wife and enjoy all her celebratory moments in the years after we finally catch up and aren't stuck in 2009
when I say 2009 I mean no medicine and no wife
when I had medicine and a wife 2016-2020 but it was still like 2012 in 2009
2009 is stuck in high school never using medicine never having a lot of money never having a wife
but being in 2016-2020 I knew I had a soulmate
but it was like getting sent back to not having money or medicine or a wife
knowing I had all that
when i say 2012 I mean I got medicine and I had a little money
when I say finally leaving 2009 and 2012 to get back to 2027
I mean i'll actually have medicine money my soulmate wife all of that
like it was in 2016-2020
2009 I was 16 I had a gf I had a little money I didn't have medicine yet
2012 I had medicine and money no wife
2016-2020 I had it all
but I've said what it felt like
2009 is just not having it all but having it good 2012 is having it a little better 2016-2020 is everything
but 2027 is going to be so much better than ever before
just glad i'll get it all back before 2030
I'm tired of waiting for all the things I worked so hard for
and to get taken away because I was being exploited or abused
and knowing if I didn't fight they would of killed me
and no one listening or being able to help
and just having to wait more time
It's been like 10 years of going without
another 2 isn't much
i'm sure everyone can understand how excited I am to actually get to enjoy the things i've worked so hard for
like having the mansion and the exotic sports car and the perfect wife and the kids and the money and everything
but having to live in jail because you fought the people imprisoning you who were planning on killing you
but the courts judge all that can't see anything more than you fought
definitely can't say you were fighting for your life
and you've already done 14 years in prison and you only have 2 more years in prison
until you literally get all of that stuff
it's just sitting in a save spot you made waiting for you
and there's no fear or worry about something happening to it because when you made the plans you knew they were going to last until the day you could finally get them back with 100% certainty
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