6 more mins of my 32nd birthday
about time for me to go to sleep have to wake up 6:30am
8 more days of community service
$540 at the end of the month
could have up to 1140$ next month
ready to get court costs paid off to get that extra $50 a month
getting tired of talking about community service and court costs
it is almost over and done
18ish months of just staying clean, paying supervision on time, and going to my appointments
get to make a lot of money, more than I ever have before
get to buy a lot of cool stuff and don't even need to unbox it until I get off supervision
18 months is still a year and a half and while I think it is going to go fast I fully understand it is 18 months and that is a year and a half which to my monkey brain that's a long time to my alien brain it is basically nothing
I'm ready to do all my favorite things how I like to do them
watch cheer competitions and other sports, cook outside on the grill, play ff11, write code, listen to new music, clean up around the apartment
12:02am 7/16/2025 it is no longer my birthday. 32nd was a really good one for not having bud or beer. 33rd also going to be no bud or beer >.< but then i'll only have like 8 months to go
pretty weird planning everything a year ahead with nothing going on lol
I like to watch videos on youtube of doctors talking about the harm of marijuana and how you can recover and I like watching self shot videos of people talking about how giving up weed and getting sober made their life so much better
and basically watch in complete distain because i've been sober 2 year and it has only got worse
beer was super easy to quit weed was a little harder to quit but NOTHING got better from stopping the use of them literally everything is worse and when I'm 4 years sober i'll be saying the same thing until I can finally start them up again and be like wooooowhew that was rough I'm Home
I feel like i'm on a car ride or train ride or flight that was a short duration but we hit a weird rift and a 2 hour drive or hour flight turned into a 4 year trip eventually i'll finally get to my not far from where I started destination
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