I'm 31 I have no girlfriend no friends no money and I can't do drugs but I'm the happiest i've ever been

grandma died

hermit crabs "ran away"

I got a tobacco addiction

my last drink of whisky was from the bottle my grandma bought me the night of her passing that I saved for two years after she passed four years ago

still the happiest i've ever been

let me explain

don't need to deal with unwanted situations for friends

don't need to change myself

don't need to worry when grandma got upset at other people and things and it meant I had a bad time

but most of all don't live with my grandpa anymore

he was so good at ****ing the system

he made a living out of ****ing a nice system that was set in place taking money during passing the hat at church

and I don't have to be the one getting the shortest straw at the event anymore

don't have to be part of games I never knew existed and no one wants to explain the rules besides saying the name of the game or the thing they said that was part of the game with them adding rules but no one else able to

no need to share food because we all live in one house

no need to consider others in any way at all period

it's so peaceful