damn it sucks to not be on weed

I never knew it was this bad

I smoked religiously for over a decade as soon as I got out of high school and in college

it almost makes me not want to smoke longer and that's what makes me okay with this for scientific research

it's like a whole other feeling where it's so bad you are okay with it being that bad

it's so quiet it's dangerous

like you can think about bragging about not smoking and it's better than smoking but it's not

very bleak

there's so much I could be doing if I was smoking weed

but i'm not smoking weed and that makes me okay doing absolutely nothing

and it's so much nothing and nothing is happening it makes me think about bragging about how much nothing i'm doing by not smoking

there's so little going on but so much that could be done

and it's so bleak

I don't want to get started

i'd rather keep doing nothing

listen

I pay and play for fun

and I won't be having fun

so i'm not doing it

I love the game played in 19 years it's the best thing out by a margin

everything is boring to do solo no one is asking for people to join a group no groups are even playing

I could write a bot but I want to actually play

everything is a massive loss time:gil:work ratio since I don't have much gil at the moment

I don't want to sell my gear because I like being strong

somehow I'm getting the most done by doing this

posting on my website

then going back and staring at my job levels thinking about the same thing and it's nothing

it's like a mixture of how cool is this list of jobs which order of jobs is the best to level to get all jobs master and what's the bad thing about leveling each job so I can prepare when the time comes which is nulled because i've done this same thing so many nights for so long

my most recent oc thought was

dragoon is the best because it has two o's

what other jobs have two of the same letter

warrior

summoner

puppetmaster

dragoon is the best

bard is the best because it's the shortest

monk damnit

bard still better

and that was yesterday