ramble post

so it's 10:17 I can go to work anywhere between 11 and 7

once I get to work it's just waiting for 7 to get to go to community service

I get to smoke at community service so that's good

if I have to mow that's just how it goes but if I get meals for elderly i'm happy

i've never mowed before at cs so I'm not exactly sure what to expect but i've been told it's not that bad

once I get today well today is monday but it'll be tuesday

when I get that done I have 3 more days in the week and 2 more weeks after that

I spent about 40 of my 400 but it was for food and I also fed my mom and little sister so that's all good

so glad to have my check stubs in and direct deposit done

got my visit next monday just have to pray my mom can pick me up and we can make it there

so I can't go to community service next week on monday either because I have a visit

but that's okay tuesday-friday again

3 and a half hours each day 3.5 7 14 . 14 hours a week with around 46 hours left

14 28 42 then just 2 more days

I cannot put in words how excited I am to get all of this done and out of the way so I can go back to my life

I'm tired of smoking cigarettes lol

rn i'm on my couch writing this it's 10:22 I have 38 mins before I could go to work but I better try to take a nap and go around 3-5ish

that way I can do the community service and stay awake

community service has giant list of what it could be but it's usually meals for the elderly

and i'm perfectly fine with that

landlord still never came to get rent, i'm starting to worry about him lol

ya

tuesday-friday for two weeks then monday-friday a week then like 2 more days

so about four weeks but I have to pay everything and that's not going to get done until march

so if all goes as planned i'll be done with everything and just need to pay

I had to fill out budget forms for november and december since I didn't pay but I have that just about filled out. need to write what I made from job in nov and dec but I have all my stubs so i'm good on that

I have all my receipts and I have the papers just about filled out besides what I made

more than anything i'm ready for the days to fly by so I can get this done

I don't want any more blocks in the road I just want to get it all done and be done with it

I'm the most excited about being able to smoke my stuff(marijuana) and play ff11 getting capacity points on the jobs I have not mastered yet. I can do it without marijuana but it's so grueling and with marijuana it's so much fun lol

my apartment is clean everything is done

my ssi is taken care of

my job is going great

I Just Need To Finish Probation

and I'm set to get back to where I want to be

I'm sure i'll be posting this and adding more as the days go by but this is about where I stand

I'm excited for my party I'm excited to get some master job

538 days done

52 days to go

I'm just hoping nothing gets in the way to slow me down

I had dirty tests when I first started but my tests have been clean now

that could be an issue it's another thing I am praying for

that those dirty tests are not an issue and me showing so much drive to get everything done in a timely manor really gets me through this

i'm at 52 i'll be at 45 soon then 38 then 31 and i'm done with community service

then 31 days of just saving up to pay all my fees

gah I'm so excited I keep saying it but I have to say I've never gone this long without marijuana and it's like not being able to see my mom or wife or girlfriend or daughter or my kitty cats and knowing they are there but still just not being able to see them

and if it goes how I want and expect

it'll be done and i'll be back where I want to be in life

I'm now thinking if there's anything I need to ask my officer

and I think I'm good but maybe ask again if I just need to do the cs hours and pay then am I a free man

what else is there

everything takes me back to being excited to get this done

I can't believe I could be strong enough to get away from john get out of that house in my own apartment

keep it clean with my girls

and possibly get my marijuana back if all goes as planned

probably the happiest I have ever been just thinking about it

Work get paid do all ssi things get paid get snap

pay for what I need save all I can

do the cs hours pay the fees

do what I need to do

get done

be free

that's my ramble

and I'm done for a little bit

now it's 10:38 and I'm just waiting until 3 to go to work

thank you for visiting my website

-upbeat, dakotah beau walraven