it's really not any harder without grandma

do you really not need your grandma

idk she always ignored everything I said that would make thing better

she always wasted time as a way of payment before doing anything which meant she was paying for wasting time and it always cost more

it's really a lot easier without her because i don't have to show respect to her

she kicked my mom into gear

like she could force my mom to do things

but they never talked

like a second life she would force my mom to do things like take me to the doctors

but it was as if she was a computer dev host and mom was a slave hdd she could make changes while offline then would reboot and that was prio #1

I can't get my mom to do anything for me about going to the doctor

gram would always get in a bad mood about brooklyn or mom then it's like having to baby a girl on her period

she would waste time as a form of payment to herself for doing things like driving places

she would get upset at work and people at work then come home in a bad mood and just get more pissed off by the minute a slow process of getting pissed off at work then just completely irate before bed time

her best perk for the entire family was when john would piss everyone off she would pay to make everyone happy again then tell john to go to the shop

she would always fight then get an attitude when she knew no one would get physical with her then get worse like a fighting chicken

like I've said many times

every single day

she got home pissed at the world because of work then worse by the minute

she was ready to go

it was and is so nice not having to play nice for someone that's just pissed

WE ALL GOT ISSUES LADY
LETS MAKE MONEY TO BE HAPPY
NOT WASTE TIME AS A FORM OF PAYMENT FOR DRIVING FOR 20 MINS TO GET FOOD

then directly after that

I PLAY FFXI TO MAKE VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE TO MAKE MONEY I DEVELOP MY WEBSITE TO MAKE MONEY EVERYTHING I DO ONLINE IS TO MAKE MONEY
then she just plays flash games to earn badges

WHICH I RESPECT BUT THAT"S JUST A WASTE OF TIME

SO NOW I"M AT WORKING TO MAKE MONEY BUT IT"S GOING BAD LIKE LITERALLY NO MONEY
VS WASTING TIME ON SOMETHING THAT"LL NEVER BE WORTH MONEY BUT HAVING MONEY FROM WORKING
BUT WASTING TIME TOGETHER BY WORKING SO ONE JUST NEVER HAS MONEY

grandson grandma time where we would be gardening or crafting or fishing ALL MAKE MONEY

if you can grow veggies or sell crafts or cook fish

AND THEN I GET PISSED
AND THEN SHE GETS PISSED THAT I GET PISSED AT THAT

but we were always friends until she came home pissed from the get go from work FOR MONTHS YEARS

I"M TRYING TO MAKE MONEY BY BEING SELF EMPLOYED TO HAVE NICE THINGS TO GET A GIRLFRIEND WIFE AND KIDS TO GET OUT OF THIS HOUSE TO BE AROUND YOU FOR YEARS AND YEARS

I DON"T WANT TO ASK YOU FOR MONEY OR FOOD OR CARRIDES
CAN YOU NOT SEE YOURE TEARING THIS FAMILY APART

then she would smoke a cigarette and not-give-a-fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuk

AND_I_WOULD_GET_SO_MUCH_MORE_PISSED

it's like not matter how much time I could make for myself getting ahead

she would just waste all that time I made for myself

as a form of payment

I had it down to her wasting like 15,000$ per minute and could literally show the math

it gets to a point where you are so forgiving you're not even a person anymore

it feels like being a piece of paper

then every thought is like a drop of water in an ocean slowly filling up until it's overflowing

then you act out

then instead of fixing the problem

they just throw you in a cage for a few weeks give you classes put you on medication

but they literally give no thought to the problem to begin with

then eventually you act out in a sever enough way

they finally let you get away from the problem areas

WHICH THEY NEVER ONCE TRY TO FIX
and getting you away from the problem is supposed to be a punishment

BUT IT"S WHAT SHOULD OF HAPPEND FROM DAY ONE YEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRSSSS AGO

do you know how many times they've told me I cannot speak to my grandpa

LIKE IT"S GOING TO BE HARD
THAT"S THE BEST GIFT I"VE GOT IN 20 YEARS

and I try to tell them THATS EXACTLY WHAT I WANT

and they're telling me in more ways I can't speak to him

I"M  LIKE I CALLED 911 OVER SIX TIMES
ASKING TO GET AWAY

AND FINALLY I DO WHAT I DID
AND YOURE TREATING IT LIKE A PUNISHMENT TO NOT GET TO TALK TO HIM
HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
I CALLED 911 SO MANY TIMES ASKING FOR THAT
at least make it seem like a reward for me doing what I did

what I asked to get for so long I FINALLY GET

"no contact with john n luce"

vs

"You've finally been granted your restraining order john n luce cannot speak to you or come around you"

my lawyers both of them i've had

neither knew anything about proving to the court and da

that john deserved what I did to him

and finding a way to get the case dismissed

I find that so wrong

I tried to tell them everything

he was drunk he started the fight

he had been mistreating me for so long

basically meant nothing

my lawyer went with telling the da how good I am doing

I"VE DONE GOOD MY ENTIRE LIFE 

that's stupid

but it worked

I just have to do A LOT OF WORK for YEARS

when it really should of got dismissed for him being drunk and starting the fight

then all the little conflicts

he said I wasn't part of his family for years

they say it gets worse for me because we are family

I called it self defense because he was trying to kill me

he wanted me to work for him

he was tired of me being tired of him

he wanted me out of the house he said he would never kick me out

which translates to killing me in the house and doing magic to kill me

they wouldn't even try for a second to try to prove he was trying to kill me in court

or he was drunk or he started the fight

but for not calling me his family

then the entire thing getting amplified because we are family

it's like literally all the evidence the attorneys had a reason it wouldn't work

then all the reasons they used instantly got thrown out because it wasn't true for the household

then instead of fighting it at all

they say how good I was doing which i've always done good

then I just have to deal with the punishment

he has projects

and when he was so sick

he realized we don't want anything from him

so instead of paying for work he gets to work people for free

so he plans on taking advantage of that

and on top of it he can get worse and worse and worse and worse

and no one can do anything about it

so he takes full advantage of that

by forcing people to do more for him

never giving a dime never feeding once never doing anything

my brother was terrible

from making me clean his toilet because I got a hair on it

saying what if his kids saw it

to telling me I tried to hook up with my sister when I asked if she could help me find a gf

always having some trick always being a joker

my other brother was getting just as bad

so instead of waiting for him to die I just completely avoid him like a plague

my oldest friend got the same way

so instead of letting that go to hell

just drop him and never msg or call or invite to do things

my sisters been like that for a long time

it's weird I have no one at all besides my cats

and I have more work than ever

and i'm happier than I can ever remember being