Well all the stuff that makes life difficult came around again

Basically the manager told me the hotel has too many people on payroll and I'm going to be the one that gets the can

He told me to come to work tonight

But basically any day could be my last the way he made it sound

There's a lot of other jobs in walking distance I'm just not confident in working then

On top of that

The hotel called the police about a van parked on the street

And they red tagged which means a 72 hour must move from the spot

On the van I do security in

So now we have to call the police office

And tell them they red tagged the wrong van

So instead of making 870+400

I'll just be making 870

So that's 870-600-45-33-61-50

It only leaves me with life 70 dollars

And I won't have the money to pay everything off in 5 months

I'm so frustrated 

I sprayed an entire can of zevo and got rid of the bugs in my apartment for 3 days now they're all back like I didnt even spray

I bought two cans so tonight I've been unleashing so he'll on those bugs basically killing to calm my nerves 

It's so frustrating that I was being mistreated and I stood up for myself

And nothing he was doing to hurt me physically or mentally meant anything because self defense means nothing

Then it's just one thing after another

From jail to pre trial diversion revoke

To no reasons being good enough to smoke marijuana 

To my job getting taken away from me any day

To the bugs

To the wrong van my van getting red tagged and I work at the hotel

2 years of this

I don't even want a job now if it's going to be like this much longer

Keeping my head up

Plan on working as long as possible 

Glad I didn't get prison time

I just have to get even more serious

It's about time to make my first payments

And start community service 

I need to complete this program so bad without any marks

It's literally not even funny

Work starts in 11 mins

I'm walking out the door to get there now