some people grow up too fast

I didn't know it was that hard to get what brian has

getting a wife in elementary school, just getting handed everything without ever having to work like daycare only doing what is fun for fun with literally no pressure the entire life, getting to possible watch those girls still from not growing up too fast

do I have it good do I have it better

giggling about to say noooooooooo no hell no lol

the devil

god recital

well Austyn gets it because he's the devil

I made him the devil because I am god

I know he is good but he isn't me he doesn't see through my eyes so he isn't god he is just as strong as me besides that one thing he isn't god

but Brian is better because he gets it without being the devil

I am god I made it that way

besides having a bestfriend and only friend on speaking terms that is the devil because I say so and another old friend that has it better than the devil

I am still god

and while austyn can't say if I have it better than him or brian I know I do

because I am god and everyone knows god wins

because just everyone in a happy relationship goes through that(skull fxcking then dying then being together)

it was a race to that

then you see them and they are happy and a kid just born or on the way

but it isn't but it could be

god says definitely not

but no one can actually tell god anything about it

so it just stays an unknown

because that would mean god is literally seeing people he knew for the most part in every way equal to him but now they are in heaven and stuck together like the old version of being married which could be just being married

again no one can actually tell god anything about that and that's one of the major ones not including the devil's deception

one of the major ideas no one can actually talk to god about

*quick flash to the anime*

I am a diamond and you are a ruby

that's why I thought you were his

LIKE A SLAVE

HE TREATED YOU GOOD

That's why I tried to kill you

but you couldn't

seeing her true form

and now we have a kid

none of them have balls

and they haven't had balls since about 5 years after I was born

it was god's turn and god made that a fact

and they all believe in god 100%

I know and he knows I get to give him his balls back

once god finally gets his turn

not from killing god which does give him his ball back too

but it isn't the right way

and he have done it before and that's the very reason they all believe in god 100% without a shadow of a doubt

because it never works without god

not for long anyways

but there has to be people that don't need to kill god or wait for god

oh yeah definitely

they live on the other side of the planet or they are supremacists

we're normal people or in this conversation "normal aliens" 

god dies every time he simply goes to sleep for rest

the timeline plays out and everyone gets to start over from where god went to sleep when god wakes up

that's why they seem so advanced and most do make it to the end and go to heaven and are living multidimensional lives and it is more like a throw away existence here

but that's the illusion so many get trapped in

if you never made it to the end to save and never did that a million times with a god

you'll never make it there anyways

that's why it is all about making a healthy living a healthy life and living decent until your demise

usually it is all about helping god and getting god or for some people jesus christ if they believe god is jesus christ to the end save spot

because god did so much for everyone day 1

but then they think jesus christ as something different

and god as something different

and it is all about the distance between where god sits and the end save spot to live in heaven knowingly having multidimensional lives

always wanting it to be further away because that's called having money extra money a lot of it

god was adamant if he got there it would be better for everyone

but with the multidimensional lives and ideas they know for a fact undisputably it will not be better for them in any way shape or form if god gets there

because at the end of the day they have saved and they for the most part do absolutely nothing and have near infinite money

leads us to two paths

the people dying for money

and god's dying for his people which could be looked at as dying for money or weakness leading to complete denial and resentment

and

"they were not playing with you god"

which translates to 1: people killing god in a world we lived in before

and 2: god has an actual issue a missing piece of code in his very being where he literally cannot see the save spot and the riches

and explaining how god needed that help just puts salt in the wound for so many people

and again we are always told john and betty did not need to be that selfish with their money

your dad is your dad and he can raise you however he wants and we know he is making the right decision

long story from this point about how john and bettys selfishness killed the entire family we call a consort and they would of killed god with their deaf and blind behavior but god knew to fight for what was right 

you're having 10 a day that's too much you can't keep doing this to your body

a few is fine for you

they didn't show him how to work

I guess I could of packed my stuff up and let them live their normal happy lives but he saved me from going to the women's and children's shelter

now betty that was just cruel making your sister's grandson work for you to get money for his medicine

I could never accept it I always just played it off shaking my head but I knew I was possessed by the devil and I didn't know who the devil was I thought I could be it but so many people were fighting to be it

that's how the elites have their fun

can you imagine having over 100,000 in the bank and complaining about a $30 meal

money does that to people

you start off watching xxx content around 12 years old and it is the beginning of being deprived

straight stuff and it is the absolute worst because the male actors are purposely ramping each video up like it is on some grand timeline until you are basically at the murder section on the xxx website

then you're stuck to girl only or girl solo and that has some feeling when you get good at it but you still missing out on actually doing it even if everyone wants you to have the sex to have a kid

starts out xxx content

then it's weed content

then you're watching people have fun, wherever it is, doing whatever, like riding a sea doo or going on a vacation

then it's parents with their kids doing fun stuff like cheer

then it's watching random rizz videos where you'll basically never be doing any of that

so much deprivation

I would of never imagined this level of deprivation in my daily life

Like literally everything I want in life

I can just watch with the way my social media accounts are set up without even searching for anything

that is one thing weed completely turns off

sober it is basically all I can see unless i focus on what is going to happen in a few months or a couple years to make plans and that works

stoned I couldn't care less I just want to work and pump out solid content lol

feel like i make up every excuse in the book to not try a little harder with girls

can't meet a girl at cs and there's plenty of girls that would work to just have a kid not even really like each other but my parents want me to meet a girl to have a kid do you want to have a kid we don't even need to like love each other just simply have a kid

can't meet a girl at work that's unprofessional 

can't go out to meet a girl I don't have so much stuff I feel I need extra spending money a car nice shoes a spotless apartment

can't smoke weed

watch videos of people smoking weed all day to learn websites and strains

no daughter to do cheer with could never even afford to put a girl through cheer

watch it for hours a day just incase it does ever happen

Like one thing you definitely know each day is going to have: severe deprivation lol

and basically the number one goal over all out of everything is to become completely numb to the deprivation when you can actually watch it

like a trained monk

to the point you feel like you could watch straight xxx content but they last time you did they were literally skull fxcking and that's where it starts at every single time

brings me to a weird thing I have noticed that supports our reality being a simulation

back in the day when you would watch a solo cam girl she would literally be like the exorcist when it was time to cum shaking rocking moaning loudly all of it AND when I was like 12 or 13 the girls looked 12 or 13 too all the way until I was about 15 or 16 then clearly they were 18

where the entire time was moaning then when it was time to go it was like eyes rolling back in their head and back bending like they were being lifted by a spirit or ghost

now it's like nothing i'm watching girls my age and even when they do climax it's like whelp that made another 100 tips I can buy food, time to make another 500 tips so I can get gas

and the change from just starting out to making it to the skull fxcking in straight porn fastforward 15 years or so and it's literally nothing completely numb one climax every 15 mins to get 100 token tips

they damn near climax and get upset the build up didn't last longer to get more tips

when back then the build up could take 30 40 mins to reach a 3 4 min OVER THE TOP climax

and the simulation part is that you'll never find those videos again and the straight stuff starts right where it left off and the solo girls are basically done

weird divine xxx content timeline

pay court off in the next 3 months it's october

have 1,000 left on supervision that can be saved up for by january 2026

but you can only pay 180 max at a time

so if I get to 1,200 I have to spend it since I get paid 880

because 2,000 cap on resource limit

I get 1,200 in 3 months so basically zero reason to save up for supervision

and 300 is a cheap but good pound 600 is a better pound 1000 is an exotic pound 1400 is like your snowballs or moonrocks the extra stuff

but you have to remember it is an entire pound

so 600 for better or 1000 for exotic

but you could get 2 or 3 pounds of the cheap but good stuff

so even if the buds are a little better on the higher price tag

is that worth it vs having 2 or 3 entire extra pounds to smoke lol

you know if you get 3 pounds of the 300 and it cost 900 that's 450*3 = 1,350 grams

vs getting 450 grams of better buds and saving $300

or 450 grams of exotic and spending an extra $100

like jumping up from 25% thca to 30% thca and having some nicer buds

but you're losing 900 grams lol

I haven't found a website that sell concentrates by the pound highest i've seen is by the ounce

and i've only seen two websites that sell hash but they only go up to an ounce as well

I can't imagine spending 1,000 for exotic 450 grams being better than spending 900 on cheap but good and getting 1,350 grams

you'd have to be the most elitest smoker out there to want to pick that

or completely rich

$1,000 450 grams exotic

$900 1,350 grams decent

how much better the exotic would need to be to make that make sense to me is literally crazy

I'm all for being elitest but I think this is a little too 1337 for me

looking for websites that sell thca Moroccan hash eggs

I've found a few websites that sell thca hash bricks clocking in around 75% thca

this is one of the oldest methods and one that seems like it almost completely disappeared

you have all sorts of flower vape and concentrate videos constantly uploaded

if you search thca hash egg literally nothing relevant shows lol

definitely a lost art

and the thing is I did so much flower smoking so much vape smoking so much rosin and dabs

I know for a fact good hash was about the only thing I did not get much of

and it has everything the other stuff is missing

best case scenario with flower you feel like a rich college kid that's clean cut drinks a lot but still gets great grades

like a really good dab feels like you are a doctor and you just finished up with a patient and getting ready for the next patient

a vape is kinda lame it's basically just to feel high and get the medicinal effects

but hash is like flower on steroids and it gets you high as a dab but it doesn't have to feel like a doctor's office

it's the secret weapon no one ever talks about

I definitely gotta get some moroccan hash eggs