Definitely not subbing to 11 this month

Lost the drive to code and I don't plan on playing 11

I think when I get off supervision and I can do all my stuff again

I'll probably start playing again

That's still in two years though

I'm happy I got the API.dll to work very very happy

But I'm just not feeling it writing code for the game

It was a fun learning experience 

I've really disliked the game for almost 10 years

I love the jobs and actually playing 

But I haven't liked any of the new content in so long

I personally like hnms and crafting

And since delve it's about as far away from hnm you can get

And I lost interest in horizon too

I got all jobs lvl 12+ but again I don't like the endgame much in horizon so I dont want to waste time just to get to content I don't like

Pretty crazy it's almost to the point I don't even feel like a gamer anymore 

Ive almost completely grown out of it

mom surprised me and came over with mcdonalds

we went up to the hotel to eat it

she had an attitude

and it's like she's in the biggest rush ever and everything gets on her nerves

and the worst part is anything you say is wrong

and she wants to argue

but because she gets like this so often

everyone well my sister and I know not to argue but just state our points calmly and sweetly to her

like I told my brother he could have my dvds

and I texted her right after that I told him that

she text me back that she would take them to her house

but my phone died on the charger and won't charge

so she got upset he already came to get them and how much money it was to buy them all

then she was upset because I said the manger told me I could work more hours and I want to work 5 hours a day

she said that's going to mess up my ssi

I told her that's not what the lady at the ssa office said

and she said oh yeah you work 2 days

then she said I can't sit doing nothing I have to show

she said she's told me since day one I have to be seen doing stuff

I told her my job was simple trash and pool

I just got new jobs the last day I was up there

picking up butts and washing the doors

she said no one is going to pick up butts for 5 hours

I said trash 1 hour pool 1 hour trash in parking lot 1 hour picking up butts 1 hour

then we left the hotel

she said they found an error that was in the drop

I told her she already told me

she said she just found out yesterday

I said I think it was yesterday that she told me

then my sister said that she thought it was her mistake

and she made a giant speech about getting it right and she never said it was my sister that it was the manager

it's like she's so angry and she's in such a rush it comes off as so selfish

and literally everything no matter what upsets her and she wants to argue

we had two drinks in the cup holder

she said the other one was mine

which you would think the other drink besides the one I grabbed

but the other tab was marked on the drink

obviously I have to think on several timelines to get this to work out mentally

so I say I got the other 

then she tastes the second drink and tells me that one is mine

I said mine was coke

then she gets upset

and then she complains about how the house is so hot even with the ac is on that when she sleeps it feels like shes in a coma

then I said I still want a lot of stuff from the house brought to my apartment

and she starts an argument by saying if you don't have room for dvds theres no way you have room for that stuff because dvds are small

i'm like wtf like for someone that demands no arguments and is in a mad rush and wants to argue about everything

it's like she doesn't want to argue

but she wants to make a snarky comments and win then we just love her and say yes mommy dearest you are right even though she's not majority of the time lol

and I feel bad for exposing that and making her out to be bad for that because she did bring me food

but it really lets me know in 30 mins why I had to get out of that house

and she does it as like a daily event

I find it SO DAMN SELFISH

she's always beating on people for being selfish even if it's stuff like getting their hours cut back and losing the apartment they just got(other people at the hotel)

then she goes and does all this which I find SO MUCH MORE SELFISH

that she can just go blind mad rush and everything is wrong and she starts an argument with every single conversation but good god almight you can't argue with her or she hisses sighs and pouts then she takes it out on you

something like well you don't need to do that now then she gets it stuck and that's all we hear about for months

like I want to say lose the attitude get out of the rush stop arguing trying to think in twisted ways to start a 1 sided argument 

just enjoy that we're together and have food

but goddamn that would be the end of the world

my sister was having an issue with the printer at the hotel

as soon as I got inside I went over to help her she said she didn't want me standing behind her BEFORE I EVEN STARTED HELPING

so I went to eat

I finished eating then was walking outside to smoke a cig

my mom stopped me as I got to the door

and said which I had so much "are you not going to help her"

well I was going to smoke this cig i'll help her

so then mom runs out the door and goes to the truck

I try to help my sister can't find the ink so I tell her to get the next person to fix it because her shift ends in like 3 mins

I go outside to smoke my cig get like 3 puffs off it

and my mom is yelling at me from the truck to put it out and get in the truck

it's so goddamn taxing on the mind body soul and spirit to have to deal with a person like that even if it's only for 20 mins

why can't she just drop it and enjoy the time away from the hot house instead of being in a mad rush to get back

as a kid growing up with her

this is the type of stuff I wanted a fulltime mic on me and a body cam

so she could watch it back and see how she was behaving

So as of now

I owe 950 to court & 1,200 to supervision

The thing about supervision is you can only pay per month what you signed up to pay

For me it's 61$ a month

Some officers allows you to pay a month or two in advance but that's a touchy subject honestly 

Well my general manager at work told me I could work more hours

Picking up trash longer, picking up cigarette butts, cleaning the pool, pressure washing the building, cleaning AC units and I'm sure he'll have more jobs I can do

I did the math after rent cellphone and Internet. I get 200 from my SSI

I make $10 an hour at my job

If I go in an hour early and stay a few hours later than I usually do

I can easily pull 5 hours a day

That's 20 hours a paycheck or $200 a paycheck 

I get two paychecks a month so

200+200+200 $600 a month to spend on court and supervision 

If I can steady keep working that time, 5 hours a day

I can have court paid in 2 months

Then on the third month I'll pay $61 for supervision 

And be sitting at $720

Then I pay the $61 for that month

And I'm at $660 

Then just one more month month #4 I'll be at $1,260 where I have to pay the 60 again

And now I'm at $1,200

Which would completely pay my supervision but you can't pay it off you have to pay month by month

So I could take that $1,200 and start buying the pounds of thca in only 4 months

If I can steady work 5 hour days

In 4 months, November 

I'll have court paid off

I'll have supervision down to like 1,000

I'll be sitting on 1,200

But remember I can only pay 60 a month to supervision 

So instantly in November I can start buying my new equipment and the glorious pounds

There's no way I can say no

I can't deny it

Past psyched passed thrilled past geeked

It's so real I'm so ready

It's like the coolest thing literally ever

I just have to find a way to put in those 5 hour long days

If I can keep that up

I can have everything paid off in 4 months

And I was starting to think it would take longer than the 6-7 months I had planned around 9-10 months

But I don't want to stretch it out that long

I want to do my little job work right at 5 hours a day 

Get my $600

Pay court quick

Pay as much supervision as I can

Then start buying my new stuff asap

I want all my new stuff

Then I want to start buying clothes shoes

And I want to set up a smoking corner in my apartment where I can take clean dabs and bowls for the camera to post here or YouTube 

I have work tomorrow and I'm planning on going in at 9am when it's still cool then staying until 2pm at least 

Open gate for trash 

Dump all the bins 30 mins

Pick up trash in parking lot 1 hour

Do all I can for the swimming pool 1 hour

Pick up cigarette butts 2 hours

Take a few breaks while I'm doing it so I'm not drenched in sweat 

But solidly making it a point to work minimum 5 hours a day so I can pull those $200 checks

Make that $600 a month for a few months

Just like 4 and I'm now ahead than I could ever imagine 

I'm about to drink some coffee I started putting butter in my coffee 

It gets me so right lol

I love it it's like it wakes me up but it calms me down I don't get jittery and I van just enjoy YouTube

I'm going to watch more thca pound reviews 

I've got two websites I know I want to order from

if you have a crescent or m on your palm

michael or to spill the blood of michael

to sin when everyone else has passed without sinning

or died a sinner went to hell and worked as a laborer outside of the eyes of those that lived in the human reality

and you purposely choose at the very end to stay longer and learn knowledge that would of never been learnt that would never be a thing since we would all be in the next existence that so many had already gone to

flipping and intertwining like a advanced figure eight to be right in line again not at the very back with everyone deciding the moves for us at the very front because the decision to stay back and learn what was not ever meant to be

kill or be killed

you are killed and you wake up in a building inside a building inside a building where everything is governed by entities that created the entire existence

you kill to not be killed and get to live on earth for several thousand years slowly learning how every single scenario can pan out learning how everything relevant works

eventually both playing out simultaneously on the same timeline with the ones that killed light years ahead of those that were killed

it could of never been possible without the literal tons of responsibilities placed on those that did kill to not want or need but absolutely have to be better 

we(they) treat him like that because everyone knows who he is now, we have the internet podcasts youtube even the radio

everyone knows he is an angel

and he did what he did for a good reason

and that he really did a lot of damage to the other person

but they didn't know that at the time of the conflict

they could easily lost the conflict or the other side could of easily faked the loss to come back later

either way

it was like a nuclear weapon going off on a civilization still making grunts for language still beating the woman with a club to call them their wife

the attack was so damaging to the other side everyone knew from that point forward they were the main character in the entire play

overthrowing john as the supreme leader and moving out to start their own life as an individual not just a soldier following a supreme leader

with david still in the light and michael and john completely removed

we have a very interesting future ahead of us

john 100% showing signs of the antichrist and michael completely trapped in the reality of living a human life

it's no surprise the last two years without john have been exceptional

and everything is gearing up for a complete recovery in less than one year

with signs of the best of times over the 30 years right around the corner

with bm showing back up in the story asking for nothing more than to be a grandfather again

2025 and the plant is free again

the gateway 100% open again

only thing in the way is a process of the state to restore freedom from the conflict

which at this point almost everyone can agree was 100% necessary

GOD does make mistakes GOD is perfect GOD can do everything and is everything

this was and still is a perfect plan

abundance is at an all time high

fees could be paid off in as little as 4 months

with over a year of saving

this level abundance to afford so many spoils has never been experienced before

it is clearly a sign from GOD the hard times being right at the end

right before the record high abundance kicks in

when we will have more of what we want than we have ever had

not double not triple but easily 20 times higher than ever experienced

did we need to do all this time to really experienced that level of abundance and freedom

it doesn't matter

I do not believe we would have the opportunities we have now

without this drastic change we have experienced

6/29/2025 and it is looking like by 6/29/2026 we will be better off than we have ever been before by an unmeasurable amount by 6/29/2027 we will be able to embrace our new life something so rich it has never been experienced before and this should last for several decades with no breaks or stops no hard times

what we have ahead of us is so exciting it's a thrill it's a reason to get geeked it is the biggest and greatest change our reality has ever had for us since birth

what god is telling us is to pay all our fees and save ahead of time for what we will need to pay set that to the side pay as time goes on

then have another pot to save and spend freely on anything we want and the numbers we see are so high

and the prices of what we need is so low

there's no way it could be anything other

than the greatest time to be alive in our entire history

every struggle every roadblock every weight has been removed and we are directly headed towards success with no resistance

it is two years away before we reach it but we will start gaining in just a few months

feeling the grown and strength from our new wealth

by the time we have officially made it

what we can accomplish cannot even be seen at this point

it can be theorized but cannot be seen

what is known is that all will undergo complete renovations and an increased level of creativity never seen before

it truly is a time to be alive

Went to see my brrrthrrrr 

He passed away 7 months ago

He had more flowers than any other of the headstones

I knew him my entire life but we didn't get close until I turned 21

From 2014-2016 we were in separable

I went to his house every single day

We smoked all day every day

And we could drink 3 or 4 30 packs a day easy

He got very sick and skinny his last year with us

And everyone could tell he was struggling with pain

He passed from sorosis of the liver

First time I ever seen someone fight so hard in the last few days

Besides my grandma

Everything looks like they're going to pass all their levels and everything 

Then they start throwing a fit and jumping up and down on the bed

Then the doctors have to calm them down

Eventually they quit fighting and go

But I'm almost positive it's all the fentanyl they give them lol

Glad he isn't struggling anymore

Both of them meant so much to me

Both of them were my biggest supporters 

And now both of them are up in heaven 

My grandma did so much for me

I had it so easy with her around

Then she was gone but she made me so strong

Everything is easy now

Got away from my grandpa and all his mind games and torture tactics 

Now I'm almost living the dream

1 more months of community service 

8 more anger management days

6 months is my goal to have all probation paid off

Then I'm buying 2+ pounds of marijuana 

All new smoking stuff

I'm already keeping my apartment clean

Taking care of my cats

I'm not even counting the days until probation is over

I'm counting the days until I can place the order on my first pound lol 

I'm literally planning the most fun I've ever had in my life and it's only like 6 months away

Then I got to wait several more months to actually have the fun

But just getting the shipment will be the best thing ever to date I think haha

Aaaahhhhhh so happy everything is working out

Everything is going perfectly 

Just paid for another year of upbe4t.com

So we still got another year boys !

Watching thca review videos on YouTube

Gets me to giddy lol excited happy ready for my day when I place my order

Watching reviews for another website that sells $500 pounds and the stuff looks good good

Maybe like this website more than the first one I found

One thing I know 

I'm going to have 2+ pounds by the time I get done

I want the entire set up before I get off

Rosin press pollen press enail rig 2+ pounds q-tips isopropyl alcohol dab mats dabber tools torch and butane at least an ounce of concentrates

This is going to be so.much.fun lol hahahaha

Glad I get to hangout with you guys for another year

I'm doing so good

I'm going to get this done

<3

Saturday 6/28/2025 1:46PM

quick update post about everything I talk about

just got back from the store bought bread, sweet tea, a bag of ice, and some chocolate sweets kinda like twinkies

used my snap on the bread and tea and paid for the sweets and ice

on Monday I have to go to ssa office, work, and am

cs tuesday-thursday gonna be nice having friday off they won't be there because it's july 4th

I owe around 215$ for july I have 300$ to spend on it so i'll be ahead

got 16 more days of cs i'll be done on july 30th that'll be excellent

am won't be done until august 18th but that's not too far away and it's only 1 day a week for 1 hour it goes by pretty fast

still got plenty of time on probation to save up a lot of money and buy some nice stuff

was looking at getting a pair of new shoes a hat some shirts

tired of wearing old clothes want to get some nice stuff

about coding

I just haven't felt like doing it I don't want to log in to 11 or work on my code lol

just going to wait until I really want to do it and not half ass it

about fees looking like I could be done with everything by around january

and I do have to save my money because they don't let you pay your supervision fee ahead

on to the fun stuff

I definitely plan on buying 2 or 3 pounds of thca I found a website I really like I read the entire website I looked at reviews on youtube it all looks very good very legit

I plan on buying all I need to get back where I was at

enail dab rig, pollen press, rosin press

I have all my old stuff but I think I want to buy all new stuff because my pollen press was broken, I was cooking tuna on my rosin press like tuna and ramen lololol, and my enail was broken I had rigged it to work

so my enail I use is demedo and on the website the one I want is sold out maybe they'll restock

the pollen press is no brand so i'll just pick one up from a shop

the rosin press is a dulytek

i'll have time to get all new stuff and a few pounds

i'm thinking new pollen press new rosin press new enail 2-3 pounds of flower and a ounce of dabs batter or crumble

when I start smoking again I don't want to do the flower bong rips even gravity rips I'm going to try to start out being professional like I was taking clean dab rig hits with homemade rosin from the flower I buy

I love cleaning the rig after each hit setting the temps perfect on the press and the rig

I like pressing at 214f and I like dabbing between 320f-420f but sometimes i'll take a hot hit like 720f-1200f

when I don't really care about the high more about the flavor

I could always taste green gummy worms with my homemade rosin

also have to get the q-tips and isopropyl alcohol

I still have my dab mats I need to probably get new dabber tools

but I want to mainly dab for my fix not really smoke flower

going to be so much fun i'll have more than i've ever had before

and just sit on it

get to be so creative and really make some cool content

it's like everything I have to do cleaning cooking working etc is not a chore it's something I love when i'm high and I put everything in to do it perfectly where like now I just do my best and usually miss stuff

when i'm high I get every inch done

I haven't been making youtube videos in the past few months

honestly I haven't done anything worth putting on youtube

but it is getting about time to post on youtube

been focused on consuming and the website

well that is today's update

tomorrow is another day off

then monday is a pretty busy day i'll try something tuesday i'll definitely post something