Happy new year!

2026

Really just want this year to end as quickly as possible 

February or march 2027 one of them is my last month for probation 

I’ll be getting court costs paid off this month

Then it’ll take a few months to save up for all supervision fees

But I’ll be done with the money part

I’ve been going twice a month the past several months

But I got it changed to once a month

It’s about 12 months to go

Meaning I only have 12 more visits

I’m so ready to get this done and be out of trouble

I want a beer and to smoke some green after I get off of work

I want to enjoy bud on all my days off

And most importantly I’m ready to start trying to quit smoking cigarettes

If I can’t quit then at least try to smoke them a little less

The only plan I have so far is smoking weed each time I get the urge to smoke cigarettes and just stop buying cigarettes lol

Probably going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever had to quit

Hopefully not hopefully it’ll be not so bad

I’m ready to quit but I don’t think I have a chance while on probation 

I smoke cigarettes because I experience small panic attacks but it’s enough for me to kinda lose it and smoking anything stops that from happening

I’m a huge pot smoker which doesn’t get the negative effects like cigarettes but I can’t smoke pot on probation 

Community service done

Anger management done

Court costs done

Supervision fees 1,100/1,800

10 months done out of 22 months on appointments

No showing up late, no missing days, no dirty ua

Not a single violation 

All I have left is to pay $700 and show up on time clean for 12 more visits

I’ve paid $9,300 and I only have $700 to go

So ready to have this all behind me

I won’t go on forever about this because I already do that on nothing to see here

But things are going pretty good

Just need to keep it that way

Get 2026 over with

And I’ll be done 

All in one broken

Should of made this post sooner

Better late than never

A recent game update broke the api.dll which broke my all in one program

A new api.dll has been released 

I just don’t have the energy to correct the code and upload

Considering taking another break from 11

I just want to rest during my time off

12 months left of probation 

Smoking cigarettes is really catching up to me

I’ve only smoked them for a year

Physically in terms of being able to do work like moving heavy things or standing up to pressure wash I’m stronger than ever but I get tired so fast now

I have to take breaks when before I wouldn’t need to

Starting to get this pain in my chest where it feels like something is expanding and I just hold on to it

Talked to my nurse about it and she had no idea what it could be

Like if I work too hard with my hands or my legs right under my heart expands like a balloon being filled with water I hold it and stay still a few mins then it goes down and I get back to work

Trying to save all my energy for work

Can’t spend my resources on 11 right now