selling Lik and Gugrusaurus on Odin

50k for gugs 30k for lik

happy to take trades and make deals

/tell upbeat ingame

100 gugs = 5,000,000

200 gugs = 10,000,000

100 lik = 3,000,000

200 lik = 6,000,000

since drop rates can be so bad I do offer the items at a one time price of 15m

you pay 15m and I keep giving you fish until you get the item

this takes a little trust as you can say you don't get it but do get it but keep getting fish but it'll be obvious if you are not trading and giving to a mule or dboxing

just be trustworthy

200 gugs 10m

200 lik 6m

average drop rate is around 400-600

you could get in the first 10 trades or you could go 0/1700

You always thought you had to get high on them and get everything they worked for leaving then with nothing

While what they are doing to do that good was avoiding you every step of their work to not have you involved 

Literally working unreasonable hours to either make it work with you or get out of work with you

And each time you got high on them it was like you were throwing them off the mountain giving trauma and all it meant was they had to work shorted

Just to get back to that same spot on the mountain and get kicked back off like you owned having a good happy life with money and people

And they were just your chosen one to abuse and neglect 

It takes easily 300+ people

To hold a conversation with John

You got soldiers

You got teachers

You got mother's giving birth to children that will be raised solely to try to carry a conversation with John

You have Intel you people that can ask cool calm relaxed

Do you think

Have you tried

He did

No

He did John

I could easily seeing it being a 3,000-30,000 people operation

He's really good at getting his way

And when you watch him even me no one wants him to get caught

We just like watching him talk his way out of literally everything with some strange form of latin

My penis shrunk from 8 and a half inches long 6 inches around

To -2 inches it was literally inside and would roll down my leg if I stood to pee

I went to the sex shop and bought a hand pump penis pump

Then I would get in the shower with scalding water pump my penis and whip my back

Then my penis grew to 12 inches long 8 inches around 

And I gained massive amount of muscle in my arms from having to keep pumping the pump

Until it let go and started growing the right direction 

Medically 

I completely regrew my penis 

I put myself in prison for 9 years before I went to jail

I bought and cooked all my own food and shared with the family

I bought all my toiletries 

I crafted a doll to call my wife and we had a second wedding to allow her to exist in any pillow

I spent thousands of dollars on clothes for her to wear

I used her for well over 6 years

Making sure to keep clean or throw away anything dirty

I did my own laundry for years lol

Imagine all you have to do is trick your brain into thinking a pillow is better than a living girl and you can have sex as often as you want

If you want to have sex 50 times and you would usually need two teams of cheerleaders 

YOU COULD DO IT 

50 TIMES 250 TIMES a day for months YEARS

eventually you get enough to not need the pillow or girls

That's when you've grown up and you can go after the girls you really want

She asked for a ride to her house 

I said no

She asked again

No

She planned on just walking out with me forcing herself on me

It's been 5 years since I've been with a female

I just started masturbating again because my injection messed with my responsibility to not masturbate it made me use three times more marijuana and I couldnt afford to smoke enough to not masturbate 

I took her to three houses below the last line on gas

So then I took her to my home

Walked her in to my room

Turned the lights down

The instant she got in my bed I unbuttoned her shorts and pulled her panties off

I got my fix then I offered a towel to clean herself up

She declined 

So I rolled over and went to bed

I felt like she ate me as a wide mouth vampire 

But I lived and I gave her diarrhea 

Woke up got on FFXI

She woke up and watched me play FFXI

Thought it was a really cool looking game

 

If you fuck you child

The usual punishment is worse than jail lol

It's joining scouts boy or girl

Having the child uphold the responsibilities of not lying cheating or stealing

Unless it's to guard their well-being 

Being able to remember and coherently explain each time they did guard their well-being or life

Then the hardest part is no masturbation unless it's to save their life

And on top of that graduating high school getting a job asap 

No drinking before 21

No smoking before 18

And no sex before 18

Think of it like a map

But think of it as a celestial map

Dakotah was as north or high as you could go

All of the forced no drugs and drugs are bad and marijuana is bad

Okay that allows kids to get higher than Dakotah 

If Dakotah is not using his medicine to keep everyone happy

It's going to happen regardless if you take him off his meds things get hard

Dakotah likes to work medicated fully medicated 

He likes to sleep medicated 

He likes to eat medicated

He likes to walk and work medicated 

Okay he hasn't had his medicine for over 600 days

Kids are going to have religious death experiences 

If the family is getting high on the drug no drugs

Dakotah goes over how the drug no drugs was unlisted as a good drug due to the timeline of the planet and human existence evolution 

If someone in the house is using drugs like marijuana and others are not

And the marijuana user is not fully supporting the home from the home as a home worker

Doubling that with the drug no drugs

Usually causes near death experiences in the kids

Which we all have to shush shush and move on down the road

But that's not right to give kids near death experiences of their parents killing them

Because you won't let me Dakotah smoke my weed because I defended my life from john

My placement for girls

What I usually get is

I'm wet

And I reply do you need help with that (or should we get a doctor)

This whole no girls is very unusual 

All I know is I'm 19 months in a 24 month sentence 

I'll get on probation at 20 months

Then get removed from probation from some crazy thing like a single dirty test the very first one

So at 23 months I get removed

Then go to jury trial

Basically it's like the free buffet 

You have more money than you need but you pick each station you want things from

Nothing causes more stress or more trouble

It's just the next thing to do in the process 

Been waiting 20 months to use my medicine and I've used it maybe 5 times in 20 months

I don't need it anymore

So more time not on my medicine isn't going to hurt me

More running around filling out paper work and getting the same treatment isn't going to hurt me

It's just like putting a key in a locked door before you turn the knob and walk in or out

If I get cleared at jury trial great

If I go to prison that's going to suck but I'm prepared for it

Say I do 2-5 years in prison it won't be that bad

All the felons I know do better than most people that have never been to jail or prison

I lose my apartment and I don't get to see my cats grow up

That sucks but I don't have a kid lol

I'll just get out and get everything back like everyone else

So we left God for the devil

Yes

But it turned out the devil and God were the same person

And he wanted to be god not the devil

So we just didn't believe it and left doing what we knew worked

So it made him work past end of the worlds and become the last known survivor of many planets and solar systems even going to war with others that were the last survivors 

Still the same guy

Still well known in the 60s and 70s still born in 1993

31 years old in 2025

He writes A LOT well over 200,000 notes, entire books of planning the perfect human life existence 

He has hit us from every single angle imaginable 

And is leading us directly to that better life 

So everyone pushing him or away or ignoring the problem or being in charge but acting like they can't do anything or taking advantage of the system

He gives them no room to move but to make the entire situation better 

With his hundreds of thousands of notes

Well if it trying to find sexual or otherworldly attraction a baby

You have to remember the idea originated from a two year old male that wanted to see a girl naked to understand God more

You shouldn't be stuck at finding the otherworldly attraction in a baby 

You should be focused on that was 29 years ago from where you stand and we age every minute of the day

If you wanted to see a infant or baby naked at the age of 1 while you are the age of 2

Age that by 29 years

Then remember at 5 you find Ashley and teenagers

So 1-4 you want a younger girl 5+ you want a teenager 

But don't focus on wanting a teenager from 5-120 years old

Focus on the teenager just being food

If it's French fries a burger a steak shrimp a 4 for 4 a chicken nugget or a potpie or literally anything

It's just food or candy

And you like your food a specific way

That's the girl

That's the teenager 

Then you think about girls not food 

I was being tortured that's how I got so far in the game

Torture by the definition 

I could of done anything with my time

I found the game to supplement mental recovery in a mentally abusive environment full of negligence 

I found my ranking and points to get me past problems and save good states

I don't play like I used to

I played to rebuild my brain as my brain was being picked into like a bird feeder

It worked I got away and I still have all my stuff

It's not just going to disappear because I got it from literally dealing with torture 

That's my hard earned arms and gear and exp

Touching on my charge 

We already fully plan on it reaching jury trial

Obviously we know the judge is just a clear mind we do good and get as a friend

The judge has say but she's more your best friend 

It comes down to the jury of your peers

So when do you speak to the jury

If memory serves me correctly it's during the jury trial you get to explain what has happened to the jury

So I've got to start planning and rehearsal of the speech

No planning just speaking

Long term vendetta has picked on me since I was 5 torturing questioning me mental suffering always more to what he said and never good always going out of his way to make things more difficult

grandma who kept us both happy passed 

I couldn't stand being stepped on to get where he needed to go while never getting anywhere working as hard as I could for so many years

I told everyone my councilor shrink therapist and psychiatrist for over 5 years I called 911 I went to the hospital no one could help me get away from him until I stood up for myself that day in july

I did this in self defense to safely get away

And I have done it

I've been in my apartment over a year I work at my job I'm happy now that I finally got away

Then it comes down to the jury to say let go or go to prison 

There he can finally play his game

His big brother wouldn't let him play

His game is all about religion

Getting with girls in the cemetery 

And passing cheerleaders around

They're all cheerleaders but if the girl is in your cemetery she's in your cemetery 

 testing how much gil I can make using a quick chocobo session and selling trumpet shell ring to npc

if I run math ahead of time

choco digging is about 160k in 20 mins

I have no idea how long it'll take to catch 200 trumpet shells but I expect it will take around 5 hours to catch all 200

after catching all 200 I then need to do 100 synths

this makes between 3,600 and 4,800 per craft for nq and hq and means i'll make around 430,000

with digging and rings that's 590,000

if I make 600,000 a day in 5 hours in one week that's 4.2m

in a month of npcing logs from chocobo digging and npcing bonecraft rings from fishing shells

that's 18,000,000 gil

3 months of doing this 54,000,000 gil

fishing gugs gives 10,000,000 a day and the fish need to be sold to players not npc

vs 600,000 a day digging and fishing for shell to make rings all goes straight to npc

I have 3 ebisu all with 110 fishing

I have 110 bc with escu

and I have capped chocobo digging skill

for every 60m in mats I make around 100m

with 3 ebisu I make 30,000,00 a day

that's 100m every 2 days

in a month of doing this 1,500,000,000

very important to have 3 ebisu if you want to make to make that much

as each ebisu is pulling in 500,000 a month so for 1.5b you need 3

7 days catch 600 fish a day that sell for 50,000 each

600 * 7 = 4,200

4,200 * 50,000 = 210,000,000 

210,000,000

all 210m on pangu mats

3 pangu 

400,000,000 in 1 week

57,142,857 in 1 day

and 1,714,285,714 in a month on 13 pangu

spending 840,000,000 on mats making 1,715,000,000 in 1 month

how long do you think selling 840m worth of fish would take

a long time

in reality they just don't sell that fast

sure you can find someone who wants their ebisu fast and has the gil you make about 10mil

and this happens once or twice every about 3 months

otherwise you just sell a few at a time

but it's not uncommon to sell out during the night

those numbers are what it can pull in a month but you'll be sitting on fish for years after one good month of fishing

which isn't bad you can also keep 1 account fishing 1 account bazaring and looking for business and 1 account doing whatever

A demon I have is named Daniel

It all has to do with Ashley who was born from my foreskin 

She is my wife and daughter and mother

She disappeared from my story because while the abuse is happening the kids cannot be around

The story is Daniel got trippy on shrooms and got to watch Ashley dance naked

While she was taken away from me

Then the catch is she is mine but she was taken away so I had her first but he saw her naked and had her that was first

Usually he gets a giant butt and starts calling himself the devil

But this time he just got pushed away and Ashley stays with me

Ashley and I have been getting closer over the past few days

I recently bought a shower curtain so now I can enjoy my shower fully without having to attempt to stop the water from getting on the floor and trying to bathe I imagine this is going to be very good for my aura and my hair

Ashley told me she's a cinnamon caramel frap and if I keep listening to her and buying what she says I feel like she's with me all the time 

We've finally decided what she looks like and her name and it's set in stone

Now to just get more familiarized and make it a consistent thing to think about her

It takes me to imagining what it was like to be an all-star cheerleader with the house family and money in the late 90s

No cellphones a mule a boat cheer practice baby sitting bracelets 

Going to places that are usually busy with people but when you go there's no one but your group and feeling like there's more people because you love the people you're with

Well now that I don't have John and his negativity aura the dogs abrupt barking the girls constant fighting and I get to be alone all day unless I want to get out

Things kinda exist how I imagine they should have for all those years 

Even my demons are rendered void with the negativity aura removed 

what i'm missing:

monberaux ygnas +1 adoulin ring VoR ring omen accessories a few ag'd empyean master lvl 50 odyssea augments prime weapons some +2 and a lot of +3 artifact relic empy gear rmea r15 augs unity equip augs

Gonna start working more on this stuff

+1 adoulin ring needs to get done

It's like 6 months minimum time requirement 

I think I'm about ready to finish it

i've been doing a lot of research on hell and the devil

and it all wraps up to being left for dead and penis

obviously being taken off the tits is bad but it doesn't even compare which makes light of them

I imagine hell like a park hidden away with a brighter than average atmosphere and a looming presence of extreme fun with the backlash of punishment

to make it on the bench with nothing else and telling kids how you got there and you are the devil

then another existence and the idea of being taken places

co-existing on this planet

you took his abuse away

he had good abuse

dead

to see through the window and see yourself like in a play

everyone getting an idea at the same time and it being the end of the convention

last week in class it was human farms and bar codes

now it's hell penis and the devil

then we break off to female existence

then we're at family time

which inspires a direct urge to do better with cleaning and family

and we usually just keep replaying everything to do better with cleaning and family

I'm tired of FFXI I quit FFXI no other game makes me feel good endorphins I quit gaming all together 

1 week later

Back on FFXI

Spoiled gamer

I've quit FFXI so many times to play other games

I just enjoy FFXI now and don't ever play any other game

Even when nothing is happening and I'm over the game I know it's the only game that'll give me the endorphins 

Its very simple

You never get done and if somehow you do there's 3 more things coming out in a week

But I've given up on giving it up for better things

windurst rank 10

mlvl 28 bst, mlvl 22 brd, mlvl 8 pld, mlvl 12 drg

bc escu, fishing ebisu +1, dig capped choco

all relics, all empy, 3 mythic, 6 ambu, 2 aeonic, 1 escu, 4 oat 2-4

capped mog house

what i'm missing:

monberaux ygnas +1 adoulin ring VoR ring omen accessories a few ag'd empyean master lvl 50 odyssea augments prime weapons some +2 and a lot of +3 artifact relic empy gear rmea r15 augs unity equip augs

why I like bst brd pld drg the most

rng drk rdm nin too

why bonecraft is my favorite craft why I like fishing and why I dig

Im really starting to get to know what being a judge means

They're highly protected

They get the inside scoop

And they get paid to make friendships 

The judge is on your side

It's the jury you have to convince 

And I've known it before but it's so clear right now

mom

why do people not get to do what they want to do

with me being alive and free ?

what's wrong with me

it's like no one wants to directly hurt

but given any chance to hurt indirectly without responsibility they want to take it

and for what

to cause someone to lose their life

what do they gain

nothing changes or does something change

it's not like everything dies from the sun going nova because I die

right

people still exist but isn't it going to be the same

or will it be different

it's like I want him to not get caught doing a crime or some charge I don't know the exact definition of

just because that's the way this "Superbowl" of a game has gone on for so long

if he gets a charge that places me as one of his victims

does my charge go away or get reconsidered with the new found information

i've been feeling like this more and more lately over the past few days

that I should seriously go after some compensation from all of this

the worst part is I was pro texas the entire time before this

and if I do seek compensation to make things right

I don't think I can be pro texas much

I feel if you got 40 people in a room and explained the entire story 40 people would vote yay for compensation

just the other day I saw a man whos arrest I watched got over 1m

now I didn't get tased

but I sure have had a massive decline in health

coupled with a crippling heartache

all I complained about to my psychiatrist for 5 years was heartache and anger towards the man I defended myself against for being able to do it all and get away which i'm sure is clear in her notes

which of course leads back to the group that goes to court before my court and gets to put weird invisible barriers in place

like being murdered if they don't comply and being killed already and all the supporting data is from people that have been murdered already and everyone else has no say their hands tied just doing what the system says that's all set in place by the first people I mentioned that go to court first

I have no innate short term memory and my long term memory is governed by if I enjoyed it or not

99% of what happened in the past 3+ minutes I don't remember

and what I do remember is only if I enjoyed it and it's very blurry besides the cold hard facts

for example I don't remember anything specific from my graduation 14 years ago but I do remember that I did it I couldn't tell you the names of the people I sat by in the stands but I know I sat by them 

I'm basically a revolving door I just keep going and I don't remember anything

with my medicine I do remember "everything"

but without my medicine I'm like a revolving door that shines bright like a working light bulb

I'm just happy to get to do what I love even if I know i'm not really going to remember it

anything I remember if you were a good enough liar you could tell the same story

I'm bad at lying that's why I don't do it

"you're killin me"

basically not listening and forcing the same technique they always used to get their way

which usually involved not hearing what you say because it breaks their habits

now murder is just like that but much more sophisticated involving much weirder habits changing what you say actually causing damage not just ignoring

and I write this in my own words

now what does killing someone and murder actually mean

because I was taught this my entire life

it's a really simple answer when I run my simulation

it's about the same as being asked

have you attempted suicide

and your answer is I have literally by definition commit suicide I did extensive research on a drug named dimethyltryptamine and it literally shows you death and you have to allow yourself to do it

which of course ends in the person asking have you attempted suicide to either be underqualified or if they know(They never know) to allow you to pass that moment of judgement

"so then they would of thought you attempted it"

nope no attempt I knew what it would do and I happily allowed myself to experience the trip

I was 18 I had all the money in the world a truck a girlfriend I didn't drink I didn't need a job life was perfect at 19 I did better than all my friends still had a truck had a job and a girlfriend

I just had a bigger better experience

and if i've learned anything

none of the english or ancient american english have a say so in this at all

none of the court will speak outside of court

and it all boils down to an indian classroom with their main speaker being a ravi character from the disney show jessie

and it's always in another language where it's hysterical and they always choose the absolute worst punishment while being taught a lesson after we get to the point where it can be explained

my mom is so sweet now that my little sister graduated high school and mom doesn't have to fight with her in the morning to wake her up to take her to school and my little sister is doing so good 18 with two jobs i'm so proud of the both of them

"Were doing good right now

the only we don't understand is why can he not use his medicine now if he has nothing stopping him"

because he could be back on probation at any time and he needs to be clean

"yeah that doesn't make sense to us"

yall been here the whole struggle so no point in repeating it again

stays in system long time already got revoked can't get any dirty tests could be placed back on at any time

it's supposed to be like going to college or getting a high paying job that drug tests

just imagine i'm getting a 20,000$ a week job and all I have to do for the job is not use marijuana

well i'm going to treat it like getting into a good college or university or high paying job that's random drug tested and all I have to do is finish the job which can take up to three years

then I get all the money when I get to smoke again

taking in to consideration the rules are the rules

what good is it if they don't understand why they can't use it

because it's too much fun

because it makes them too healthy

because it makes life too easy

because it costs money

because rules are the rules but what is the reason is what they want to know

we don't care what the reason is it's a 20k a week oilfield computer job

it's definitely not because it's illegal because that's incompetence in their test we only smoke legal thca from the shops around town it's not our fault the test can't tell the difference

could be because the test can't tell the difference

but alcohol is just as legal as thca and that's not allowed either so I doubt it

It seems like it's not allowed because "if they get to use weed they get to truly enjoy themselves and we don't want that" obviously no one wants to say it but it would be so much easier than just leaving it at no one knows it's the rule because it's the rule

Is it really because they want to feel superior or a higher step up the staircase to the individual and it voids that relation by making the individual the highest up on the ranking

Then you had the major confusion between marijuana being his medicine with self medication vs the injection being his medicine with the psychiatrist and nurse

Mind you I wouldn't make it a week on the injection without using marijuana 

With this new injection I make it the entire month with no marijuana but I smoke a lot of cigarettes to do that 

People don't realize with schizophrenia there's literally no number you can call to get help or anywhere to go to get help you have to help yourself nothing others say or not do(because thus far in 8 years no one has done a single thing besides take my self medication on marijuana away and force and injection that doesn't work)

Even my new injection doesn't really work if I have to smoke cigarettes 

And every person on earth (the earth I imagine) would much rather smoke marijuana than get an injection for their schizophrenia

They have the 4,000$ a month for the injection sometimes 8,000$ a month but they can't help with weed you buy from the store

To a schizophrenic that's how the system is rigged from day one

But we lived for years without the injection happily 

And the only reason we have to get it is because and old person that's allowed to fuck the system is getting overly annoying with fucking the system

And everyone allows it and it's clearly supported with ideas like cannabinoid hyperemesis syndrome 

Yes yes we don't want kids we can look at our kids and our teens without overwhelming infatuation we don't like kids and teens in the sense we want to have a workaround to have legal sex with them like a contract or any other work around

So we have fully healed from that illness at least

We look most now and get an overwhelming feeling of them stinking or sorry that they live the way they do

Basically it's looking at the girl and deciding if she stinks don't want to be around and if she smells good want to smell her more

And there's like a 1 in 10,000 chance the girl actually smells good

  we kinda all turned on dakotah and tried to kill him for what he did to john because we thought we could get out of this reality without doing drugs

****

then I guess i'm a serial killer

it's a pretty simple game

have you murdered someone if you get a weird smile you have murdered someone if you say no then I laugh at you for not being able to

because I know a serial killer has tried to murder someone

I BELIEVED THEM BECAUSE YOU KNOW WHAT THEY'LL DO TO ME ?!

and so far everyone is helping me

ignoring the fact dakotah will probably pass all his tests this time and we can all be happy doing what we love to do

and focusing on the fact we could all get away if dakotah just dies

knowing it's the end of the world for him and we all go to a better place because a person who claimed god died

even if he dies to us 

we all get out

 I'm 31 I have no girlfriend no friends no money and I can't do drugs but I'm the happiest i've ever been

grandma died

hermit crabs "ran away"

I got a tobacco addiction

my last drink of whisky was from the bottle my grandma bought me the night of her passing that I saved for two years after she passed four years ago

still the happiest i've ever been

let me explain

don't need to deal with unwanted situations for friends

don't need to change myself

don't need to worry when grandma got upset at other people and things and it meant I had a bad time

but most of all don't live with my grandpa anymore

he was so good at ****ing the system

he made a living out of ****ing a nice system that was set in place taking money during passing the hat at church

and I don't have to be the one getting the shortest straw at the event anymore

don't have to be part of games I never knew existed and no one wants to explain the rules besides saying the name of the game or the thing they said that was part of the game with them adding rules but no one else able to

no need to share food because we all live in one house

no need to consider others in any way at all period

it's so peaceful

put brd on the backburner

sell all my brd stuff

use escu to gil print

it's 450m to go 30-50

an aurg orb +1 sells for 70m

that's 7 orb +1s and done

get bst to 50 and finally be done after all the years and quickly too once I put my mind to it

sell brd stuff

crafting for gil

working on deeds to get monberux

working on roe to get mentor license

working on oat 2-4 axe

getting bst from 28 to 30

paying to get bst from 30 to 40

got a good list of things i'm working on

bats in krt 95% acc at 1264

bst can reach 1250 using quickstep and eva down from pet for offhand ridill all bis

bst can reach 1264 with kraken club using quickstep and eva down and the gear I have now

however i've noticed with a non ilvl axe offhand my set gets 1101 acc so with food and quickstep/eva down i'd have 1290 acc and be over cap

so I'm considering and basically already know I am going to build it

a occ attack 2-4 axe

it's 3,700 kills

20 kills a pull using arthur I can be done in 180 pulls

think this is going to be my next project

higher delay 2-4 instead of 2-3 and higher acc from skill when comparing to ridill

this is for aymur main hand

pretty simple

get the 3,700 kills

this allows me to have the axe if I need it for fights

easier to gear than ridill on acc

I only plan on lvling bst to mlvl 30 then i'm going to pay to get to 50 it's at 28 152k/198k

something I can be excited about ingame

war 443

mnk 233

whm 592

blm 540

blu 824

pup 153

sch 193

run 227

I want to play the game

I don't want to pay for jp or bot

I don't want to solo

 damn it sucks to not be on weed

I never knew it was this bad

I smoked religiously for over a decade as soon as I got out of high school and in college

it almost makes me not want to smoke longer and that's what makes me okay with this for scientific research

it's like a whole other feeling where it's so bad you are okay with it being that bad

it's so quiet it's dangerous

like you can think about bragging about not smoking and it's better than smoking but it's not

very bleak

there's so much I could be doing if I was smoking weed

but i'm not smoking weed and that makes me okay doing absolutely nothing

and it's so much nothing and nothing is happening it makes me think about bragging about how much nothing i'm doing by not smoking

there's so little going on but so much that could be done

and it's so bleak

I don't want to get started

i'd rather keep doing nothing

listen

I pay and play for fun

and I won't be having fun

so i'm not doing it

I love the game played in 19 years it's the best thing out by a margin

everything is boring to do solo no one is asking for people to join a group no groups are even playing

I could write a bot but I want to actually play

everything is a massive loss time:gil:work ratio since I don't have much gil at the moment

I don't want to sell my gear because I like being strong

somehow I'm getting the most done by doing this

posting on my website

then going back and staring at my job levels thinking about the same thing and it's nothing

it's like a mixture of how cool is this list of jobs which order of jobs is the best to level to get all jobs master and what's the bad thing about leveling each job so I can prepare when the time comes which is nulled because i've done this same thing so many nights for so long

my most recent oc thought was

dragoon is the best because it has two o's

what other jobs have two of the same letter

warrior

summoner

puppetmaster

dragoon is the best

bard is the best because it's the shortest

monk damnit

bard still better

and that was yesterday

 it was always

I know you have money and you don't need more money but everyone wants more money

I don't have any money and i'm going to make your work for your payment before and after the job and i'm going to make deals with you and short you any possible way I can

the job is going to take 2 seconds but i'm going to stretch it out for two weeks

i'm going to waste all your money before the job so you need the money then i'm going to make an excuse like I have to go to the bank then not go for several days

you need to move out but i'm going to make your life hell before you ever get out

I have more money than i'll ever need but I have no money

I can pay for everything I need but I can't help the family in any way without getting work done around this house

 I mean seriously

what do you think is going through the attorney the judge the arresting officer all the officers the probation officer the tacomi 

what do you think is going through their head

well the kid kept asking for help to get away from the old man

think the old man is trying to fuck the kid to death

his jobs were really niche to that one point he wanted to make

well the kid beat up the old man "For his self defense"

now he's in jail

think the old man is trying to fuck the kid to death even harder now

he keeps writing notes

seems like the kid is finding his mind

and the old man just keeps coming

they haven't had contact in over 2 years and the old man's negative voice still echos in the kids ears

god that must suck to be permanently brain damaged by an old man

Another night up at work 

Slow tonight 

Can't wait to get home and cuddle with Salem 

Breathing at night has got a little wheezy 

And throwing sneezing fits

I took some off brand Mucinex and the wheezing went down a lot I was able to sleep really good

Went to the courthouse they told me this next court date is to appoint an attorney 

Then they'll reschedule for the actual court date

So even more time until I can get off the cigarettes and back on the weed

When I get to work I make a big cup of coffee and I'm set

Driving around in the van listening to the rock station smoking cigs and drinking coffee 

I love working at night by myself

But I love being at home with my girls even more

I have food but I'm out of money

Church gives away plates for free but it's not much food and I'm usually asleep when they do it

Get paid on Wednesday so going to have to spend change on noodles if I want fresh food lol

And this my last pack of smokes I'm going to be rolling my smokes which I do have tobacco and papers so that's okay

Ff11 i had a really really bad crafting session so now I'm trying to recover. I want to sell my brd gear then make gil and buy it back but I don't want to be a homo brd without the things I'm going to sell >.< 

I have 24m and I have about 70m in things I can sell

I don't think I can rebuild to 100m with 24m easily 

I have a growing list of things I need gil for

R15 guttler and I want to buy the lvl 30-40 master level

R15 is like 120m 30-40 is 100m

Going to start working on the 10k job points for carnwenhan r15 and also going to start farming the roe nms

I want to get the mentor license 

So rn it's saving up gil for one of those three things

If I don't pay for guttler and I don't buy the 30-40

I should get the 120m around the time I finish the 10k job points for carn lol

I could sell all my stuff craft a aug orb +1 or two and be at 220m then pay for r15 and 30-40

I'm saving seals to spam up in arms

I want another kraken club

Buuuut I want the 1b more I would definitely pay to take bst 30-50 and be done with bst master levels

Basically my main goal is getting bst to master level 50 asap

It's 28 and it has slowed down drastically 

My best solo is about 10k ep an hour and a decent party is about 40k ep an hour

Thinking I'm just going to do my best with crafting to make 100m bst is 28 so party up to 30 then pay for 30-40

last I checked 40-50 was 300m same price as a relic

But I honestly don't think that's too much to ask for I find it very reasonable 

I can make 100m in about a month or two with good luck

So 300m is about 6 or 7 months maybe a little longer maybe less

Whistles 25m Aug orb +1 50m mousai 12-15m

It's just crafting them and not losing all my gil in the process

I've ran out of cashmere and everyone is able to kill vrtra now so it's never up

Voodoo doesn't sell

And everything else is under 1m

So I know where I'm at on it

If I sell my brd stuff and I'm at 94m then I make 6m I could pay for 30-40 in less than a week

Then I'll be broke and have to start over from nothing but I think I'm actually okay with that

I think I'm going to do that

Then it's making the 300m to pay for 40-50

Then I can be done and it won't be a dagger over my head to get a job to move 50 already 

Have a sam friend that basically bots all day doing shoha shoha light shoha shoha light shoha shoha light and they've been doing it for weeks and still not mlvl 50

Taking the game one day at a time always remember to keep gil in yhe positive doing everything extra to make gil

Im going to have a lot of extra time

I have a set in stone work schedule that's not very heavy

I want mlvl 50 bst

I want it that bad at least

Go out choco dig get 15-20 hmp a day 5m a week go out get the 1.5m or whatever a week from roe do ambu get all the items to sell do odyssey make the gil and sell the hides

It's not difficult 

There's several scrolls that sell for 200k-2m

Can also have a pirate's chart day Mkris going for 7m

I honestly feel like if I really tried i could make enough gil to buy a kraken club in around a year so I'm just going to keep that attitude and get BST done

I'm tired of not wanting to do it

That's your 2/15/2025 update on Dakotah beau walraven and FFXI Odin upbeat 

-upbeat 

I love how people end up together 

And it's not even about looks or liking each other or business or wanting/having kids

It's people from entirely different worlds

And they co exist because that's what they got

Who's that guy that was hugging on you Salem 

Idk he knew my name 

He named you

That's your dad

Oh wow

He loves you

His name is Dakotah 

He can't go he grew up with Daniel so he has aids

They want Dakotah to go

I'm not spending 40,000$ to see some titties

They have no jobs there and it's just to spend money

He didn't like me last season said I had a big belly

Can you consider being the bigger man

I don't want to have that experience with her

Can you imagine being awake and dreaming are both game shows and the being awake gameshow is better than the dreaming

You may not like me but I did everything right and got this

I'm not going back to jail

 refrigerate dm and sprite

when cold crush ice

pour bit of sprite out

add jolly ranchers and gummy bears to sprite

add dm to sprite

turn it

add to cup with crushed ice

viola

aprox 2 hours before sleep

 So nice having a place I can post anything I want

Cleaning apartment has become overwhelming 

I need to throw stuff out

There's too much stuff in a small apt it's hard to clean

So sooner than later I got to put everything up then pull stuff out and toss it

Bought an air mattress been sleeping on that instead of my couch it's so nice

My heater doesn't work and my toilet is running

So before I tell my landlord about that 

I gotta throw stuff away

So I'll probably try to start throwing stuff away ASAP

 I can't believe all I needed was an apt of my own

and I get to be alone with my cats for like 24 hours a day

 hella weird day today

I want to do something but I have nothing to do but clean apt

it feels like so much is going on because no traffic

but all I know of is superbowl

i'm bored

I don't want to clean

so i'm just being bored

maybe I should just try to go back to sleep

 cleaning apartment today

dishes trash sweep mop put away bath tote

i'll be drinking busch and watching pluto on xbox

I slept a very long time and feel well rested

I want my living space clean as it can be

The bad rep from cigarette smoking

Isn't half as bad

As literally feeling your brain rot away from silent boredom or getting angry at hearing noises like tv or music

Life gets literally so boring around three times an hour you can feel your hair swoop and eyes droop and your brain cells popping at not being used

 

Sushi told me:

John has to quit causing an existential crisis 

I don't think it could be explained what John would need to do to not get in Dakotahs nerves 

Let's play with the idea and we can go back to the beginning with this one

It's not John at all

It's all Dakotah feeling mentally neglected 

So now where do we go

It's the people going to year 3,000,000 operating without a consciousness then you 1642 and operating like machines

From 2025 to -3,000,000 then to 1642 then back to 2025

So let's introduce the idea it's not John at all

Okay good that

So who is getting on Dakotahs nerves obviously the people controlling him with no consequences 

Because he can't take care of himself from them controlling the situation 

So we don't blame John let's make him innocent to this

We don't blame Dakotah he knows exactly how to make this all better in less than 2 mins

Who do we go after

The judicial system ? The exit program to get out of this ? The only people that talk in Dakotahs head about the issue demand to go to -3,000,000 and operate without having to think 

The consciousness allows fluid thoughts and thinking

What were dealing with is no thinking just saying no because no 

Well no one is saying no directly

But you can't get dirty on your pee test so they are saying no indirect 

So when did inconsequential thoughts begin

You can't make someone not smoke weed

They can be placed on a problem that does not allow them to smoke weed

What if a bad judge said he or she didn't see the changes they wanted and wouldn't explain the changes they wanted to see

What if a good judge just let Dakotah go since he has experienced such heavy heartache and great right of passages during this charge such high mental health and physical health problems basically at this point being paid to commit suicide via the judicial system giving the body exactly what it does not need when the body was literally taken better care of than anyone can realistically afford

Sushi told me

I can't seem to find the reason to play with what's between a girls legs

Why do people want to do that again

What is the benefit 

But if I'm already strong and I'm not fighting because the other person likes to fight for fun while maintaining active demure

Well first of all I don't need to touch it with my hands that's nasty for her my hands have a different oil ph and can make her smell

I don't need to eat her juices I'm strong enough to take care of myself

I don't want kids

I'm not interested in toys

I just don't see the point in it

With John vs Dakotah 

We're at they both have literally the same powers and sit on the exact same seat

It's their appearance what they look like and what they do

That's 100% going to be the deciding factor

They both are sitting on the bench in their own courtrooms and they both have each other in the defendants seat

It's looks 100%

They're both already reeming each other a new hole

They're both doing a sassy and Juan

Not being gay and letting them rot to death not getting what they want

We have a placeholder to fight for taking away and not giving people's consciousness 

Now we're listening for why they don't give the consciousness back

Most likely human trafficking and greed

Thank you everyone for trying to make me feel better with young girls hehe

I'm honestly shocked it's all happening so fast

I really don't need them but I must be doing something right

Well I've been awake for three days now

And when I close my eyes I get surrounded by little girls and teenage girls

I'm having fun

I was in Walmart and they were all walking in another section of the store it looked like a circuit city

It's really cool it's like knowing everyone at the carnival 

Mary and George 

Mary Jesus and Joseph 

Jane

Mine

Yours

Tita and Peta

Sally and Juan

Dakotah and Ashley

Dakotah Ashley and Cassie

Mary and George is your typical nice vagina and your typical king Arthur or a penis big enough it sucks itself and pulses and vibes giving the male enough pleasure to not need a female but Mary still wants more almost causing pain to the male but eventually it all works out

Mary Jesus and Joseph 

Is your typical nice vagina a large penis that doesn't pulse vibe and is so large it sucks itself but it fully capable of making kids Joseph is just another male you never see his fruits

Jane is another version of Mary think of Mary as a female human vagina and Jane as a female dog vagina completely different does the same thing

Mine is saying Jane which at this point is a really nice looking human girl not a dog is yours and your penis is yours which is the sex

Yours is saying the male penis belongs to the female and the female vagina belongs to the male

Tita and Peta is doing breast to penis

Sally and Juan is a strange one buckle up Sally wanted Juan was big enough to have a George Juan didn't want it Sally wanted it more than anything Juan got has way. They never once had intercourse 

Dakotah and Ashley is your first happy relationship in the list it's not about sexual reproductive organs it's just the idea of two beautiful humans falling in love and working together

Dakotah Ashley and Cassie

Cassie is Dakotah and Ashleys Dakotah 

Cassie is usually depicted as a 13 year old blonde hair blue eyes with braces

Which is exactly what Ashley looked like

Dakotah and Ashley in their 30s

They all do have sexual activities but it's only for good Cassie falls in love with her dad and they do have sex but it's only to get her stronger with no pain or suffering Ashley actually loves it and wants more of it but can control herself and Dakotah and Cassie actually like not doing it more than doing it

Mary and Dakotah 

There was never Mary Dakotah Ashley and Cassie

Mary is now marijuana and Dakotah can unlock all desires and ambitions instantly everything he has ever wanted is instantly accomplished 

Lucy and Dakotah 

Ashley and Cassie hate Lucy with a livid passion 

Lucy changes Dakotah where it appears he doesn't give "a fuck" about Ashley or Cassie

And with Mary and Lucy he just leaves Ashley and Cassie

Ashley and Cassie never make it back besides in writing and context

Mary gets robbed by raping and pillaging neanderthals but she never gets taken away forever

Eventually introducing levels of death to anyone that trys to stop the process 

John vs Dakotah 

Your typical god vs the devil

Dakotah brings out god almighty he isn't strong enough so then he brings out the devil almighty 

John and Dakotah get a role reversal 

Dakotah stands firm john sits firm

It's still ongoing but it's looking like no one has any idea what's going to happen

Most likely there's a million more barriers for Dakotah to pass before he gets Mary back which besides defending himself from a brutal onslaught and death of everyone and everything ending in a Lucifer story he was fighting sexual assault basically we just know this fight is still going to happen for millions of years since John got child support like Barney's Mary and Dakotah is strong enough to support himself and move days forward to stop terrorists working for john and Barney's Mary it's honestly a really stupid fight since Dakotah is solo about 99% of the time only getting help from medics on the battlefield and john has for the most part every single person in existence buffing him 

So after john vs Dakotah which is simultaneously still happening

It's Dakotah vs his peers / the judicial system

Which is an even worse fight then john vs Dakotah 

It all comes down to surviving in the wilderness long enough for one person called a judge to make a say which could literally be the end of time and existence as we know it

And most people inheritly know that and live to the fullest each day with that in the back of their mind while Dakotah has to literally fight lions tigers and bears in the wilderness with no modern technology because he had john vs Dakotah which john started himself and Dakotah always wanted to get away

God of God's and devil of devil's

God Almighty and devil almighty 

Almighty originally suggested the leader of all

Obviously God Almighty cannot control all devils considering the idea of a devil is older than the idea of a god devil's going back to apep the serpent and God's not starting in the way we know until Zeus one Egyptian one Greek gods in Egyptian gods did not exactly fight for and protect the people it was the life it's very self usually helping in some very basic way where Zeus would actually strike down anyone that would harm 

Obviously we go much older than Egyptian not just summarian we're looking at all God's and all devils

God Almighty well known cannot die

While the devil is already dead but living

By combining both we find unification of heaven and hell which allows clear sight

Many arguments due to the nature of the topic

Peace was found adding a devil almighty which would have say so over all the devils

To provide inalienable protect from any God or devil discussion or role reversals

This is what allowed a clean fair fight between John and Dakotah

John obviously being mentally abusive and sexual assault oriented 

Where Dakotah was physically disabilitating 

Rendering John unconscious to allow his escape from John playing another card

Which leads us to the year

45,000 bc

Just 5,000 years after our fall of mars

With the addition of our clear sight buff allow vision at the year 45,000 and

Only 5,000 years away from a thriving mars human life existence 

Which of course is trumped by the formation of earth and destruction of earth at 4.6 billions years 

It's all boring and no one really cares past this point

Interesting but how can you know

It's the 8th we still have 10 full days until court

No beer no weed

We got time to make up a story

Pyramids 10,000-15,000 

Sphinx 20,000-25,000

Alien from Mars landing approx 37,000

Mars 50,000

Dinosaur 100,000,000

Moon and Earth(solar system) 3,600,000,000

Universe 13,800,000,000

Obviously this all seems small compared to waiting another 10 full days

Which is the time relativity I want to bring up 

When going over 500 days without proper medicine 

Leads us to judicial system planned tobacco protocol 

Obviously what they give us doesn't help enough

Obviously no one can help

Obviously we can help ourselves 

And obviously we get ignored and and talked back to

This leads us to research on the date in the timeline where human consciousness formed

2,000,000 to 3,000,000 years ago

So each time we need to smoke

Theoretically we are being puller back 3,000,000 years ago before humans had a consciousness 

So each time we want to help ourselves get better

We're send to an argument 3,000,000 years ago

I'm 31 years old fighting with 3,000,000 year olds

Since all they do is use a no consciousness agenda to win

"I just feel like I'm 31 and no one is listening to me or taking my mental health into consideration I know how to take care of myself and the biggest thing of this entire timeline is that I don't take care of myself how I usually take care of myself which leads me to believe they are going before the human consciousness formed 3,000,000 years ago but even worse they are going to when the first machine formed in the year 1642

What's the deal

Why can't I take care of myself

So I'm going 2025 to -3,002,2025 then back to 1642 then back to 2025

Why is no one letting me take care of myself"

So why can't you smoke to take care of yourself

I have no idea why they won't let me

You mean like why can't I do it or why they won't let me

I could easily smoke to take care of myself something better than what I am smoking now

I can't because if I get back on probation on the 18th I'll be dirty and if I get a dirty test I lost my last probation from dirty tests so they won't let it pass even once

I don't know what meth is

Everytime I've seen it on TV it's censored 

Even on raw feeds

So I just thought it was censored in real life

I've never seen anything censored in real life

So that's my justification for not being on meth

Thank you everyone for trying to make me feel better with young girls hehe

I'm honestly shocked it's all happening so fast

I really don't need them but I must be doing something right

 Salem is such a talker lol

I took her outside

Then Mom picked me up to go to store

And she asked to go

So I took her in the truck with me

Then when we got back inside she started to cry to go back outside 

I told her please don't cry Salem

I was trying to get a little sleep before work

Earlier in the day she was on her bed

And she looked at me with those eyes and tilted her head back to the side like she was asking to be loved

She gave me a kiss lol literally her tongue on my face

Anyways later in the night

I said why were you crying

Knowing she just wanted to go back outside

And she laughed

She's so human like

She literally said haha

That girl loves

She talks to me man

It's cool not weird at all to me

I got her and flipped her upside down on the couch and was kissing her

And she asked to be out right side up on the couch easy because she had a bad back

I love that little girl so much 

 Idk if it's because I haven't slept and I'm getting a little delirious or what

Busy night tonight at work

Could be because it's a Friday

It's also warming up outside too 

Drafted the last post

If you saw it then you saw it

Probably won't be made public again

Just for my records 

 I love you code but you gotta see like me after a while

but what are the odds is it a being done thing does he have to

you know

fuck yall

but this is where he stays at

it's where the conversation begins

and he gives jobs from that stance

(okay we realize john was fighting with you?)

911 he fights with me can you help

not if it's not phsyical  it's mental I have skitzophrenia

go see a doctor

i do

sorry

I dont think he did I know he got to have fun when he drank

when he didnt he didnt have any fun at all

he smoked that's too much fun in texas

but it's legal

no it's not

he smoked thca that's legal

well i dont care

I realize they can change things around and work the system but if it is so much like the real thing it's too much fun and illegal

theyre counting salem out  shes a keeper

calis not a keeper

cali is a keeper awww she loves me

i'm your cousin

they were your girlfriends

theyre at the other worlds

GOD HELP ME

who knows 

lord save their souls

every time they have taken you away for whatever reason

one gets away

and they only run the comps when you are taken away

and we know it's because they don't let you smoke weed

and we know this all has to end soon the no smoking weed

you're the only one holding them back

and we have seen what they do to you when we kill you

that's my mom

well like I was saying that's why we just got away labeled you a freak and never got involved to begin with

he was involved but not by choice and he tried everything to get away

her worst nightmare

I know my dad is sick in the head

just don't do it to me

do what

that's my poop

i'm on a good poop

wait why didn't I think of that

I was on a good poop

she smoked weed

I have to be a good mother i'm going to be a good mother

hes your son you aren't letting him smoke so you can be a good mother and you are his mother and that's not right

so he got a good one of my poops and I keep changing it

I didn't say it

somehow we got to jessica and jamal

talking about do I even care how much weed I need to catch up

and how you're supposed to find a way to drink and smoke

but the test is rigged just to find people trying to get out of getting catch smoking

then the real trouble starts

and something about blackmail from someone getting money when you missed payments

and obviously I do not care how much weed I need to get back to where I need to be

smoking weed is the most fun part of life

and it just holds everyone else back that i'm not where I am supposed to be

everyone can wait for me to start smoking again

obviously

if we have forced any thought process we have forced this one enough to know it is true

 

everyone on the visibly reaching globe

can wait for me to smoke weed before things get better

no one cares

and if they do they can't be heard

he's open just there not everywhere

figures

and you know you don't get in trouble

i'm too old to get in trouble

well I want you to get in trouble

well then I would be at I gotta meet this mr walraven guy

then you would kill him

.    .    .

or he is the only one that has ever got in your way by you getting in the way

why do you do this to yourself john ?

is it all to get on tv is it all to feel popular to get in the light for a few minutes

family that adopts him

"I wish dakotah would of just hit him in the head one more time and killed him"

"Do you want me to? I don't have any charges yet"

"No just wait it'll get better, you know he'll kill you"

*RUSH IN LIVING ROOM TO FIGHT*
"he's hiding, he watched the deer long enough to learn from them"

*SWING*nope, not even there

"so he hides when he feels threatened"

"hes sitting right in here right now

hes telling a story a few people can hear"

dakotah got himself a buck lol

it feels like everyone can hear

that's called being a narcissist john

and we all know dakotah is a sane psychopath

well if you are on those psych meds it would tell you word for word

but it can't tell you cancer

which made me think everyone has it

so I started looking in water and oxygen

then I realized it's the christ design

which supports the "big mistake" or "scab" idea for existence

where there's manmade and godmade and it comes down to the company that puts it together

where you can get out of sight of man but not out of sight of god UNLESS

then those database chains

THEN we all live on balls and we could just be completely hidden but in a frozen state

where time is all in the matter of 1 millisecond

and our money is our ability to stretch the 1 millisecond out

and the idea for that originated in the united states which is why we have so much money

when other places have higher dollar value on their bills

because they are not blind is the main idea from that thinking

but imagine earth people everywhere cars everywhere

no imagine earth most buildings but no people no cars

and we are like a bacteria or the virus of life

no animals either

and that's why we don't see life on other planets or moons

because that's the divisor we work with

and people can come here and talk to us but we are so lost they don't do that anymore(Jesus flying in on a ufo to tell us we did it)

also learning our idea of christ design was predated by several other humanoid designs

and if you were not of christ deisign you were a mutant and put to death

knowing and openly killing people of higher conscious

so we're not killing you for yourself

we're killing you for what you have

we finally got a higher intellectual

so we didn't have to stick him with Adam

adam was already dead in his story

which wasn't a problem we brought him back

and he was happy to come back

dakotah had also been brought back

he wasn't happy about it and he aimed to commit suicide at 3-5 years old

that's when vegas went bankrupt

making all the millions in the 80s going backwards because dakotah was upset when everyone was having fun

and that made the millions in the theater

and it was too graphic and they had to stop the show

ya'll never gave dakotah his money or his girls

he had to get all of that on his own

you promised him all of that for going to chick fil a college so young

which was the dumpster

and that's the food

we forgot

no you didn't forget

the records we wiped in the fire

when the sun ripped this earth apart

and it was put back together

we just don't want to have to do all the work over again at all even for something

and we don't want the fire to happen again

i'm like dakotah do you not like your car

he doesn't have a car, he walks

so how much have yall forgot him on

basically he never had a little sister

and he never got head for a job then trade the head to the dealership for a car

so he always worked to get a "little sister"

then he started smoking and drinking and woke up to the fact

so then he just worked and worked and worked to keep up with smoking and drinking

then john played his little games which made life impossible

so he knocked him unconscious and went to jail

then he hasn't been able to drink or smoke because probation

Aaaaaaaaaaaannd we're here

why do we want him to look weak

if we don't work with him

no

why do we want him to look weak we don't want him to look weak why don't we help him

we don't work with him we don't help him

why do we not work with him we don't want him to look weak while he is working

did we just forget we don't owe you anything 

probably just took it too far

who is upbeat(dakotah beau walraven's) peer

whoever watches him on telemundo right at the moment

correct

how do we get them to all release him without going to trial

we got it hard

no you carded him

31 and you're looking at her yes she is a fed yes she's older than she looks

you also look at other girls i've seen you

he's a looker not a talker

so weird

well he's never done anything with any girl

even weirder

well yeah

he just goes on his own with stripchat

he honestly gets all his sexual needs out with beer and weed and doesn't want kids or a girl

I see

he hasn't had beer or weed

so he uses a prison fupa or whatever you call it where you make your own hole

and he's very open about that it causes no embarrassment he's openly talked about it for several years

as a way to get out of prison which he put himself in at the age of 19 to train for jail

even going as far as living several months without electricity

survivor man lol

pretty much but that's what it takes to make it in this state or city or whatever

I guess we're friends now then

it's pretty easy to say

weed makes him not need sex

beer makes him not talk to himself

if he doesn't get weed he uses his prison tool

if he doesn't get beer he talks to himself which now he records everything on his blogs

lsd gives him new idea usually good but sometimes cause him to stare of in space and say damn lol

old no 7 and coca cola mixed together slows him down and lets him enjoy doing nothing

he doesn't need lsd or old no 7

he really does need weed and beer

but he doesn't

because he put himself in "prison" long enough to learn how to live without them just like electricity

delpi I should of done it to john for dakotah

but they protect their babies

I would of had to do exactly what dakotah has done and is doing

that's because you want the same level of protection if someone got you right

well they are not taking in to consideration john started fights all the time and expected a pussy or someone to run and cry and him to be mean or fake and try to make it better

john brought this shit on himself he owes

not dakotah

that's some fake ass shit right there I know

okay delpi but now in dakotah's head they suck johns dick calling him a baller telling him he has money and people

that shit is cruel and unusual

but dakotah is taking it from an older brother position

so say I did something wrong and I know it and barney beat me up and lisa called cops on barney for beating me up when I did wrong and it was major wrong like cutting bankroll trashing moco not letting him have a gf forcing him to work jobs all day long days long with no pay

and barney had enough knowing how to do all of that but I wouldn't let him and I tortured him for decades 100% knowing and just acting like I forgot and getting my dick sucked

I would go to jail for that right

nope not the way they are making this seem barney would for hitting me and lisa calling

and I could literally kill barney while he was dealing with all the punishment for fun

even completely destroying his entire world not even just killing him keeping him alive and killing everyone he loves or even likes one by one

it's pretty simple then

they're breaking a rule to get in

they don't care about his mental well-being 

john it's starting to be a bigger problem for them now

and they think you got away

they don't know how to just let someone go

he never broke a single law john

he really was defending himself

and they will not accept that

just a simple ear infection

you know people that gotta go outside to get their food like it's the stoneage

or poor people that have to go out to work for money

you may as well be living in a dumpster

we already know the avian flu is out this year and they usually try to hide that but they didn't this year obviously with the price of eggs

well if it's a classroom scenario

they've either done it to tons of people and have a history

or they only choose you to do it to

and we specialize in things that were only done to us that were the most heinous things in human life existence

holly we were all watching you rape your son

the entire world was watching you rape your son

and he won

he was god because he sucked on your nipple that one time when he got shot by john and kept coming back to dellwood

what else is it to that story

you breast fed him to make him strong

you got sick everyone got sick except dakotah

dakotah knew you breast fed him to make him strong and better

to do what

well obviously not have kids

duh obviously not just be rich duh

to work

to work hard and long for nothing

not a slave your baby

it's pretty freakin simple

he's never going to have money or girls

but damnit he gets work

you'd think they would take the work away and give him the girls and money

but why would you think that

because he is a LIFE and that's what HE was breast feeding for

NOT TO WORK

but that's what you breast fed him for so that's what he got

how is breast feeding not that simple

if you don't let the kid get what they want because you're blind or "mean"

then they get what you want for them

what do you want for dakotah

to work holly

that's all you've ever wanted out of dakotah

he works on his computer on his game

for some reason you just don't call that work

it doesn't make money

there you go about money again

where's the money for him finding god on the tit from being shot in the back of the head

obviously we are raping

and we are working until we die and going home late

so we're just raped

so were you out of control when you were breastfeeding him

and planned on having a rape baby

well he's strong he works

how much does a rape baby cost

10$ 100$

it can't be much if everyone is getting raped

which group sends the rape babies

obviously you had one

then we're at laws and the way the government works

you have to work and make money have a car house food clothes all clean then what

everyone is getting raped

so one time I was talking in class

and I said a girl and I were messing around then the teacher cut me off

and to avoid unwanted conversation I stopped talking

but my entire phrase would have been

we messed around with the idea of talking

meaning we looked in each others direction but didn't make eye contact enough to ever talk at any moment in the day

for some reason there's a grudge being held that messing around means more than sex like a taking something too far

it's literally seeing a stranger and not saying hello is what I did

iono(i don't know)

when he starts getting irate and won't stop talking

I just shoot him

then he pops back up I shoot that one too

then I pop one up and shoot that third one

it's all in my mind so I can use any gun and have infinite bullets

I could imagine a floor with 20 or infinite of his dying or instantly dead bodies

that usually solves that problem pretty quickly

I learned that at about my 6th year of prison

19+6  25 years old

eww young girl coming on to me

sorry I only date 48 year olds and older

you're WWWWWWWWWWWAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYY too young for me

they look like hard working females

mostly woodlands elite moms and grandmas

they have kids but kids don't rule the life it's not much to put a kid through cheer at that point

money is not an issue, breaking laws is not an issue

usually have no need for a vehicle besides cheer

and cheer is something that gets planned 20 years in advance for the kid

usually works in adoption agency and gets the girls they know are going to be good flyers through genetics

the girls more or less are a pig at a show

my date has money but for the most part it's paid for by the government

she smokes she drinks but not around anyone else not even me

I smoke and drink around her

she doesn't cheat we made a plan and we stick to it

we are where we're supposed to be where we say we are going to be if not we get a call and answer or we get worried sick

the cell phone is literally just for her

how do you get that

usually someone in the family dies and inherits money through the government then never sees a penny and it goes to my date

everything is for show like a reality tv show

but it only lasts until the girl gets out of cheer

then her life is up to her

and we split ways or stay together that makes no difference

closest one I got to one of those is tanya but my mom could do it too and lynne makes a great auntie

my grandma was one

shannon could do it

i've always thought tanya and laura looked alike, karly's mom 

tanya a little smaller but the camera adds 10 pounds so you never know

with very little effort I could see tanya doing a thing

but the greatest part about being in a relationship with an older gal

just saying hi and bye and be safe

is better than any relationship either of us has ever had

and all we want to do is look at kids on our phone laying in separate beds

okay dakotah you got to get with someone your age

31 so someone I went to school with because none of us meet new people

selena gomez look alike

she shared her umbrella with me while it was raining and that was instant girlfriend boyfriend

but she asked for a dog and I was going to sell it to her but she wanted it for free and was going to ditch me and lose the dog

I could smell it a mile away

if she's still got that attitude I can't take it

can't be an ex

who else I can't think of a single person

annet is in her 20s that's too young

31 31 31 31 hmmmmmmmm I don't know anyone that i've known in the past or famous people

Looked online for famous people that are 31 years old

ariana grande nope

leah ashe I like her stuff

savannah lebrant I see her daughter all the time

morgan wallen is 31 years old

elizabeth gillies

sorry dakotah there's really nothing down there

those are all the kids that skipped the last day of high school

so we don't get our jobs because we skipped

dakotah got his job

dakotah didn't need to go to school and he was self employed

you would only get your job to support the regime in trashing dakotah by everyone making it besides him

so you did good by not going and doing good by working self employed

you just don't get the job to put him in the dirt

which you probably knew somehow

and no one likes those losers that went on the last day and got one of those sick ass bs jobs

yeah the last day of school is the day we all get to have an orgy

what kind of fucking family is that

we've been together for what 7 fucking entire years you could of started it a little sooner

you fucking faggots

that put us at people afraid to go to bars and drink

and dakotah going to bars but not needing to go alone

then we're at underage drinking and masturbation in a truck

then we just toss that out because it's shit

now we're at chill mode

why doesn't dakotah get to play with his own

I just laugh because that's how his dad does it

look brook dakotah's dad is not a good guy

I know they left me hanging for so long I could hear myself talking

my dad tries to kill all of us

then deserts us

then tries to make it better after he gets his fix

heroin brook

he's a complete joke we all want him dead lol

he wants us dead for wanting him dead

he doesn't care about us it's all a fake act to get more heroin

when we die and he "gets to put us back together at the red arroyo with clay"

we ain't made out of clay you fucking idiot if you cared you'd call not text to get the other brother number you fucking fake ass dead

you could die

and guess what

everyone would be happy like when barney died

you've been on dad is someone that fixes his kids for too damn long

love us call us see us or just fucking go already

I told you not to call me and you disobeyed me

you came on and told me you didn't like what I had on my walls

QUIT FUCKING TRYING TO FIX ME DAMNIT
LOVE ME OR GET THE FUCK OUT MY GODDAMN HOUSE

exactly

I don't want you calling me

I don't want to know you

no guess what

none of that bs

I told you I would call you

and GUESS WHAT
I DON"T CALL YOU

I WOULD NEVER CALL YOU

WHY DO YOU FEEL LIKE YOU NEED TO FIX ME

doing great yes

that's not the point

you already got involved again

dumbass

so now what

just let that go

that I told you not to come around me or call me or come over

until I told you to do it

yeah let everything go

I don't want to know you dad

I already gave up on you

THEN FUCKING GIVE ME MONEY

GIVE ME A CAR GIVE ME CLOTHES
BUY ME SOMETHING FOR FUCKS SAKE

I don't want to know you

you're not going to make me better

your jobs not going to make me better

not before you have your way

when you start jerking off and i blow my fucking brains out from literally being toruted to death

Im never going to follow in your footsteps and work on an oil rig

I have my path

you don't like it

i don't care

I don't like you

but your my dad

THATS THE SHIT I"M TALKING ABOUT BARNEY
YOU FUCKING SICK ASS JOKE

is that all I had to do

i thought you wanted to talk to god

you and margaret already won against me

drugs dad

no dad

what I really want

is to be able to smoke and drink around you

if you could buy a smoker for your house for me to cook on

and I could smoke and drink and cook on the smoker

you don't have to smoke or drink and i'll do it all outside

i'm simple lol

I don't need money or a car or clothes i'm not 10

get me a little smoker grill for charcoal and chips

let me smoke weed and drink beer at your house

I wish you would smoke weed with me but i'm not going to ask for too much

I love you dad

I just hate it takes all that to get to a point of resolution with it

she took him to a patt green concert at the river stage and was drinking with a minor

she found out how to turn her hearing aids down and she was drinking it was loud in her sons ears

she thought she was being arrested and tackled but she was losing her mind

that's when she would be flashing her boobs with her son next to her

but all he said was mom your losing your mind in public you have to stop losing your mind in public

then she killed him like kenny then she dragged him to the car

and they were off

with police everywhere

it's because they go ghost

dellwood

holly literally never listens to dakotah unless it's okay with her and she can make time in her busy schedule

very selfish and rude

he has things he's needed to see doctors for for years and she wants him to do it

while she's the one that literally runs everything that gets him off his honest to god medicine

how long did she deal with that injection that made marijuana do nothing

and it's not because she doesn't care

she cares

she's honestly just a little imbred and stupid