EDIT: 10:00 pm 12/14/2023

14 days since i've heard another male urinate or spit

it's the longest i've ever gone in my entire life

and I am pleased by that

and excited to start counting days

that I do not listen to other males pee in the toilet

adding

plus the three ear infections, broken wrist, and starvation(5 months no food)

not to mention watching 3 people die with my own 2 eyes

having to fix myself with no more than 3 tylenol a week

I have developed new super powers

and the new distance between #2 and myself

allows me to spit on him

before he finishes a spit after a hawk-start or starts at all

which eases the strain on my human physical meat vehicle

adding

if I could use my medicine that allows me to stop talking/thinking 24-7

due to my mental illness known as schizophrenia

medicine: medical marijuana and superior light beer

the powerhouse could shut down maybe for a day or two

it has been 140 days since

i've had access to my medicine

as a schizophrenia patient

I am my own doctor

I have done my own research

all doctors have lied to me since my birth mother's bird video of me has been released

I was demented at 5 and tried to fix with bootcamp/war reform from 7-10

at 11 I started taking care of myself

from 18 I diagnosed and issued my own medical treatment

since I would have been reset to 4 again and got worse and worse

mother got involved at 23

I self funded all my medication from 18-30

and tripled it from 23-30 due to mother

knowing no hospital or doctors would help with the true medicine

or true fix for my condition

please allow me to treat myself

I have 19 years research in computer programming and gynocology

I know what my body needs

I know how to fix it

please quit fucking it then changing the plan and fucking it more

we already know the fix

it was decided at 18, 12 years ago

please,

listen to my story

do not try to go over me

    thank you

-upbeat, dakotah beau walraven

smoke break:

spit on john as he interrupted the radio signal

he admitted his son jeffery and previous family left him

due to john trying to turn him into dakotah, even as far as wearing dakotah's skin

admits jeffery is gay and refuses contact

another wife is just to do the dirty work

john's legs gave out

john has always had the ability to reattach severed limbs

and always get returned to earth even if left on other moons or plants

due to gps locating signals in his body

no known way to fully

remove him from our planet

always fully recovers

and is allowed to punish whoever did the damage

slowly time is rotting him

this is due to human life span expectancy

john's legs are back now

holly: put that on there

john thinks he is "getting you"

which translates to "beating the kid" or "torturing the kid"